Write a letter today to someone who needs your encouragement. –Jeff Goins

This is the last challenge that Jeff Goins gave to the people who joined his #my500words challenge. I have to admit that I failed it because I haven’t completed the 30 days. I just have at least 12 posts. 12/30, ha! But at least, it encouraged me to write more. I may not have written on my blog everyday but I have left more notes in my little notebook, in my journal, and my planner. Whenever I think of something, I don’t hesitate to write it unlike last year that I chose not to write what I think because I thought it is dumb.

I learned to suck it up and face my fears. I was so afraid that the world might come and get me but I realized that I should stop acting that way. Time to be braver. If I want to write, I should believe in myself and practice more. I need to stop comparing myself to others and stop thinking of not being good enough. Even if my writing is far from perfect at least I am slowly learning from my mistakes.

Even if I am late for the last challenge, I still want to do it. I always talk to people who are close to me, email them every day , chat or tweet and say encouraging things so I figured that I can write an encouraging post for someone who really feels down today – to a frustrated/or depressed or lost twenty-somethings today.

Dear whoever you are,

I don’t know exactly what you are going through but I want you to know that I understand if ever you are confused on where you really want to go. Maybe you have a job or maybe you don’t have one yet. If you have one and still feel lost, well been there, done that my friend. I really can’t say that go and freakin’ leave. No, I won’t do that. I remember when I was also thinking of leaving my first job – I was torn between my dream, my family, and my personal finances. At that time, I was happy until I realized being happy is not enough. Being JUST happy cannot pay the bills. So I decided I have to do something about it. I have read and watched almost all the encouraging, most positive articles and videos just to feel better. Or make myself at ease that I will not make the wrong decision. I was so scared to leave because I’m holding on to what they say "if you’re happy then go for it…" Then reality happened. Life happened. You’ll realize that life is not all about you. There are many factors in being happy especially now that we are still young.

I really want to give up at that time but when I watched this video of a famous broadcaster...She said that if you are happy with what you do, money will follow after you (okay, I’m not sure about this but it is something like that..) then she took a pause and added, “But is it applicable for everyone?” No. She added that some are just lucky while others need to fight harder to achieve their dreams. Don’t grieve and be disappointed for not being part of the privileged ones. Do not mope and give up just because you are one of the people who need to work harder. Instead, work hard, fight harder, and live more.

If you really want to leave your job, leave… but make sure you know what you want to do after. It will be better if before you send that resignation letter, you’ve already figure it out. But, if you can’t figure it out yet, start by talking to people who you know will never judge you on your decisions. 

I remember when I have this conversation with my brother, I told him that what if my decisions will turn out to be mistakes? He said (with an annoyed face) so what? If you’ll realize that you made the wrong choice then treat it as an “experience.” Another advice I got is from a veteran photographer in the fashion/entertainment industry, He asked me on why I will leave my job, I told him some of my reasons (like greener pasture and I just want to take a break from the media world). Then I suddenly felt the urge of asking him if I am making the right decisions.. He told me that I am just the one who can answer it and how can I tell if I am wrong or right when I haven’t done it yet? He told me that I am still young and go do the things I want to do.

Well, there are so many encouraging things that we can relate too but not all of them are applicable in our lives. Just pick out the best that you can relate to.

Never ever give up. Allow yourself to grow by making your own decisions. Because at the end of the day, it is your life. Go and do what you want, you freakin’ twenty-something! Make mistakes “Make a lot of them, because there's no better way to learn and to grow, all right?” –Jen Lindley, Dawson’s Creek

Love,

Kit

#my500words: Just nothing

*just wrote while listening to Art of Letting Go and You could be happy.

*free writing

Goodbyes break hearts, souls, hope, relationships, joy, and many positive things. It was said in a song that we all can learn the art of letting go. How can someone really let go? Is it when one will go to different places alone but still feel all the hurt whenever night time comes? Is it when after you said good bye and finally have the courage to leave that you start to feel better for yourself but still feel your heart aching whenever you remember a certain memory. Or is it when you felt all the pain an

Memories.. Good or bad.. all of them has a place in your life. Feel.. Feel the pain, hold on to the memories, accept, don’t accept, go back to step one. Try to say it is really over. Say goodbye even the words choke you. Set it free, set them free, set him free. Maybe someday you’ll be fine, you’ll smile at each other because it is all over but right now, accept… let go of the grip slowly, one by one, one step at a time. You can learn to live again.

Start again. Restart? Yes you can. Don’t give up on your life but give him up. No, he is not your life. You have your own. Live it. Don’t be pathetic –well, it’s fine but don’t be like that all your life. Hold on to the memories but learn to put away the candid shots, the sweet pictures… the beautiful memories.

Unchain your hands, your feet, unchain your heart. Unchain everything until you feel free. Tell yourself, enough, good bye, IT”S OVER. Even if you don’t believe it.. Say it. Let go of the grip. Stop holding on. Open up the door, get out. Walk away. Kick all the chains. Think of Start. Restart. New. Run. Walk not towards him but towards a new you. Towards a better life. A new future. Forget about the future you drew with him. It does not matter anymore. It does not exist anymore.

Accept it. Just think that you are walking on your own in a blindfold. You can’t see anything right? Get the blindfold off. Continue to walk, Open your eyes. Do not be afraid. It is dark? Walk again. Don’t stop. Run. Run away. Do not look back. Not yet.

You can be happy again. And maybe he also wants you to be happy. He wants to remind you how you were before all this. Even if he wants you to stop from walking away just think that maybe he is not the one. Not the right one. Not right now. Or Not ever.

You will be okay. Alright. You will heal on the right time. You’ll get scars but you will be truly happy if you just let yourself to let go. Cry it out now, scream so loud, shout all the hate then breathe do it again until you get tired. Have a time for yourself. Be happy, hang out with good friends. Be free. Smile. Accept, heal, let go, live, and be happy again. J

#my500words: Dear you

I'm just on my third #my500words post and it feels like I don't know what to write anymore (haha!) I really don't want to read my last posts because I might end up doing more tweaks which is not part of this personal challenge.

Anyway, I got an idea from a post I saw on tumblr. There's this certain blogger who writes short notes to people close to her, sometimes strangers but the catch is it doesn't have a name. There's no clue of who she is talking about. It's like the letters we write on our diary but this time it is posted online and that person is unknown...

It's like letting all your feelings out.

So, I'm going to do it too.

Phew.

#1
Hey, I know that you are having a hard time right now. You have so many questions on what is happening and I know that we all push you to be braver, stronger, and mature enough to tell the truth. I'm really concerned about you. It feels like you decided to be a mature person about this matter but you still can't swallow your pride. I'm afraid that something bad might happen to you just because of your selfishness. Why can't you just tell the truth? I know it is not easy but you have to remember that the clock is ticking and this is not something that you can hide forever. I don't know what to do with you anymore! Please? Please? Please? tell them now! Please?

#2
I never thought someone like you really existed. You are such a douche bag.. You fucking jerk. Whenever I remember your name, all I think about is jerk! jerk! jerk! *ssh*le. Ugh! How can you let something happen so easily and then deny it afterwards. Someday, when everything will fall into place, I hope the time will come that you realize the things that you did. I hope when the right time comes, you'll regret the day that you saved yourself and even used God's name in vain. I know that not everything is your fault but when I read all your messages... I cried because you made someone so important to me feel like trash. When the truth is you are the crap. (I'm sorry to say this and I'll probably regret this but, I just don't care right now.) I just hope these things that you've done will not happen to anyone close to you. and one last thing, Stop! saying that you are a changed person.. because you are not!

#3
Thank you for opening yourself up to me. You rather keep everything to yourself and does not build a lot of relationships because you're just not that kind of person. I'm happy whenever you tell me stories about you because I know that you trust me enough to tell me those things. Last year was the time that I learned to build a wall and limit myself to people who knows me best. It was surprising that I gained a new friend in you. Thank you. Thank you for helping me whenever I don't know what to do especially when I was the new girl. Thank you for teaching me to be a less worrier.

#4
This is something I know I will laugh whenever I got the chance to read again in the future. But what the hell, I just want to say it.

My daydreams are often about you and me meeting somewhere far from home. I even imagine myself being disappointed because the you in my dreams is very far from the you in real life. And then, I go back to that night of the gig when you smile that genuine smile...  And *poof*here goes the daydreamer again. Don't worry I don't imagine my future with you, I'm old enough to realize that you are just a crush -- a super crush!

#5
You'll be fine. Just don't ever give up on your dreams. One step at a time. :) You'll get there.



Wow!!! I enjoyed this.. Maybe I should do this more often! :)

#my500words: First

So, yes! It is one of my goals to improve my writing this year.
I even bought a planner that I can also use as a  journal so I will not have an excuse not to write anything. I promised myself that this time I will not edit myself (so much).

I've been very conscious of my writing ever since some stranger criticized my post on her own blog without even informing me of what she did. At that time, I was on my lowest and to discover something like that is like you're telling me that I will never be good enough. It was also the time when someone said that I write too blog-ish.. but I know that the write-up given to me is something worthy of that "tone" for that certain article... I was so pathetic at that time that I believed everyone who says that I'm not good enough.

I allowed them to let me down which is so stupid of me. Then, after all those pathetic things I tell myself, I just woke up one day that maybe they are right about my writing (for now) but I realized that they will never be right forever. I barely remember that stranger's blog but I will never forget the day I told myself that when the time comes that I will be good enough, I will never ever do the mean things that was done to me to others.

I will also try to do free writing (which is what I am doing now and maybe for the rest of my blog posts the next days) as much as possible to avoid my "write a little. edit. write more. edit. edit. haven't finished this write up because I edit so much" routine in everything I write (but of course I will not do free writing in the articles I write for work!)

This 2014, it feels like I really wanted to live for myself more. I am really excited for this year because I realized that when you've done something that you thought is very hard to do and you suddenly do it.. Oh my gosh, I don't know what I'm talking about but I'm just saying all of this because I don't want to edit myself so bare with me. LOL

So? what do I really want to say?! I can't really put it into words....
but I remember the quote from John Green's book --Paper Towns.

“It is so hard to leave—until you leave. And then it is the easiest goddamned thing in the world.” 

I remember that last year was the year when I felt that I have been the bravest. 

All my life, I know that I am the kind of person who will never leave something  just because I just want to,  I'm burnt out, I got fed up, and I'm just tired of everything... If I can suck it up until the very end, I will.  But then again, people get tired and sometimes you just let go... and leave. and I DID! I can't explain the feeling into words but it was one of the best that I've felt.

It's like holding on to something for so long and then you let go, it hurts but I felt lighter. 

I remember how I cried because I felt like I've let go of my dreams but then I realized that I'm still holding on to those dreams... I just have to take a different road but I will still arrive on the same finish line. 

Begin Again

Begin Again
Steps for a Better and Fresh You

Kristina Noelle Andaya

They say that 2012 will be the end of the world, but the optimistic ones are more concerned on how they will make their selves better this New Year. A better you can start from having a total makeover or having peace of mind and heart by letting go of the awful things that happened in the past year.

You don’t need a new year to refresh or restart your life. You can do it anytime. It just feels refreshing to embrace change as you welcome 2013 full of hopes and dreams.  Sometimes when you want a fresh start, it begins from within.

Choose confidence

Start the year by allowing yourself to be more self-assured. Stop caring about what everyone else thinks. Life is too short to always seek others’ approval on who you want to be. To gain more confidence, begin by accepting who you really are and everything will fall into place. Also, surround yourself with people who will bring out the best in you.

Choose now

Everybody’s excited about the future while others dwell too much in the past that they forget to live in the present. Today is a good start to have a wonderful tomorrow. Stop reworking yesterday and don’t peek too much in the future. It is time to make the most out of today and live in the moment.

Keep it real

There’s nothing more refreshing than being your authentic self. Drop the mask and show people the genuine you. Say no if you really mean no and utter yes if that’s what you really had in mind. Being true to the world often makes your surroundings more true to you, too.

Keep making mistakes and learn from them

Do not be afraid to fail. Mistakes are there to remind you that you can keep getting better. As Michelle Williams’ character Jen said in the 90s drama Dawson’s Creek, “Be sure to make mistakes, make a lot of them because there is no better way to learn and to grow…”

Welcome forgiveness

Holding grudges and burning bridges are unhealthy ways of living. You can never be happy when you fill your heart with hatred. It may be the hardest thing to do, but as the new year arrives, allow yourself to forgive. Forgiving is a gift that you give to yourself. Live your life by accepting apologies and dropping the hard feelings that have been in your heart for a long time.

Welcome challenges

Problems are a big part of life. Your existence here on earth will be dreary if you get everything easily. These problems are challenges that allow you to become tougher and wiser. Once you’ve overcome these challenges, you can face harder battles in life.

Stop blaming

Another year means another chance to improve your take about conscientiousness. End the day when all you do is blame others or let others defend you in situations that you know you are responsible for. It is now time to take a stand and have the power to take responsibility.

Stop hating life

Life may never be fair, but it is still worth living. Instead of complaining about your life, make the most out of it. It is easier to be said than done, right? But you have to accept the ugly truth because one way or another you still have to get up and face it.

Remember: enjoy the journey towards a better you.

Things to start doing in 2013

ð        travel

ð        sleep early and wake up early (Oh! Gosh!)

ð        try listening to a new genre of music

ð        save money and watch the concert of *insert name of favorite band*

ð        make a bucket list and start doing it.

ð        learn a language you hate

ð        read more

ð        take a technology break

ð        accept change

ð        let go

ð        forgive

#17: Write First Drafts and Don't care about the world

from a TVD fan :)

The Vampire Diaries Season 3 Episode 10 

It is really a happy day for the Delena (Damon and Elena) fans. Everyone's waiting for that kiss on the last scene in the latest episode. The writers finally gave in to the most dominant fandom in the series.

The problem is I am a Stelena (Stefan & Elena) fan but I do not hate Delena, sorry I'm not the kind of fan who hates other pairs just because it keeps getting on the way of my favorite fandom. I told you guys, I am not a fan of hate! haha. Honestly, I also like Delena! I have to admit Ian Somerhalder and Nina Dobrev have great chemistry on and off screen. I love them as a couple! Super cuuuute. *blush*

To prove that I love the Delena fandom too:

Gooosh! Damon's lines are really, really argh! I died! :)

Damon: I love you Elena and just because I love you I can't be selfish with you... I don't deserve you but my brother does. *Gosh, tears*

So yeah, I like Delena too but Stelena got me here! (sorry I can't embed the video)

*play Gravity song by Sara Bareilles*
Stefan: What would you write?
Elena: Dear Diary, ...... I'm scared Stefan, Im scared that If I let myself be happy... the world will come crashing down...
Stefan: Do you wanna what I'm gonna write? I met a girl, we talked, it was epic. The sun came up and reality set in, all this is reality, right here.
(OMG, guys sorry, I am really a bad transcriber when I get so *kilig*! haha just better watch the link.)

When Season 3 started, the worlds of Stelena fans were crauhed, literally, LOL. haha
I know every Stelena fan used their kleenex during this scene:
Elena's birthday, that phone call

and had their hopes up when they watched this:
Stefan saves Elena from falling

And then the Christmas hiatus was over and another heartbreaking scene of Stelena was shown.

</3

Because of this scene, I have created a mental message by Stefan and because I got really carried away, I wrote it down on my journal. After so many years on writing on my journal -- the scenes that I wished have happened (in any books, movies, tv series and personal experiences), the words that should have said, the things that would have done, this is the very first time that I would share it on my blog. haha! I may talk a lot but what is written on my journal stays on my journal (even unfinished short stories, many concepts for stories and future novellas etc).

Here's my created lines (I don't know how to call it.)

I based it on the scene where Stefan said "Not really my problem." 

Stefan (what his heart screams but he said Not really my problem) : 

" I know Elena. I know. I heard everything. But I need to do this. Klaus turned everything away from me. I have to ruin him so that he could not bother you again. You think that I may have lost my humanity Elena, I appear to not care anymore but there's a deep pain in my heart that I cannot control. The pain digs deeper but I cannot let it out. Everytime you look at me with those piercing eyes is the most painful thing that I ever felt in my lifetime. If only I could just drop this fight and tell that "I lose!, I don't care anymore if Damon would die, if any of you would die. I love Elena and I don't care about the rest. It may sound perfect but it isn't real. As much as you need me, you also need all the people around you. I know how much you love me and that you are holding on because you still believe that I could care. But, the evil side of me is pushed to its limits, and I won't blame you if anytime, you would let me go. I hope you could see in my eyes all my feelings for you but you should not. Go away now Elena. Leave. 

Elena: *slaps Stefan* Then you can go to hell

Stefan: I am already in hell because of all of these. </3

-end-

Well, How was it? I hope you liked it! Super dramatic right? Because that is what i felt as I watched that heartbreaking scene. 

*woah, this one's a really long post. I hope I didn't bore you.*

<3Kit

from Creative Writing Now

Email sent to me... Just in time when I am trying to think of making concepts and plans for my future short and added plus  I'm thinking what to write for my contribution on Imaginaccion literary book  2012 :) !

Here are some poetry prompts for you to celebrate the new year.

1) Write a poem about something you tried for the first time in 2011.

2) Write a poem about something you lost in 2011.

3) Write a poem that captures your feeling about 2011 in under 3 lines.

4) Write a poem from the point of view of your future self.

5) Write a poem including all of the following words: champagne, presentiment, midnight, transform.

Looking for story ideas?  Invent a character, and give him or her one of these New Year's resolutions:

1) Your character decides she's going to make a certain person fall in love with her... at any cost.

2) Your character decides finally to stand up to the bully/boss/relative who has been making your character miserable.

3) Your character decides he or she's going to stop lying to everyone about his/her secret (for example, a secret job, a secret problem, a secret relationship).

 

Happy New Year and happy writing!

I wish you a creative, productive, healthy, and happy year ahead.

Warm regards,

Nancy

Thank You http://www.creative-writing-now.com

Unsealed letter in 11:11 11-11-11

I've been thinking of what to post this day. I really don't know what happened to me when I suddenly wished on 11:11 pm, a few days ago. My friend and I were exchanging text messages because I had a very bad day. When the clock strikes 11:11 pm, my friend told me to wish and without even thinking I wished. Maybe, when you are really down and trying to be alright again, you start to believe again.

Actually, I really don't believe in wishing in 11-11, I don't even bother to know its history. It just became familiar because some of my friends believe it. They would even send a group message when its 11-11 pm.

Everyone's so busy planning something special to do on this day. Me? I just think of a special blog to post.

Until, I remember the poem that I made for our Literary Folio (it was released last February), Imaginaccion XIII 2011: Existensia. In this Literary Folio, my friend Airiz is the EIC and Debbie is the Creative Consultant. I am so proud of this book because we gave all our best here especially, the two names I mentioned. :)

I submitted two poems (only one poem got accepted :) ) and some photos that has relevance with the theme. The theme is Existensia: Seven Deadly Sins and Seven Heavenly Virtues. 


So here's my page :)

Unsealed Letter

How far is 1486 miles away?

They asked me but I cannot say

I held the unsent letters

All sealed with a kiss except the last chapter

We hoped forever

But, how come I still believed in such whatever!

Tik tok Tik tok

Ticks the clock

I recalled,

With your sweet lovely smile

You promised to run

when the 406^th letter’s done

Now, I’m staring on this little piece

Where I’ve put my whole heart

Hoped that it won’t be torn apart

As I give my special kiss

Bells started ringing

My heart keeps on thumping

I tried to look for you

But they don’t want me to

Then played our song,

God knows I’ve waited too long

You’re the one who made me better

so with this unsealed letter

I say, 1486 miles is so far away

still you came back and stay,

I almost cursed forever

and now we will start over

I hope you like it.

Derena Fan Forever

Jenny: Come on, Dan, Serena said hi to you at a ninth grade birthday party and you've never forgotten it.
Dan: How could I? She was the only person who spoke to me.


I think this part in season 1 is one of my inspiration when I made this derena poem. I submitted this for a literary book but it didn't make the cut. I still treasure it because it always reminds me of Dan and Serena. 

Lifesaver

You were just a fantasy

who swooned me to perfect ecstasy

I am a nobody

And you are never a needy

Alone in a crowded room

You came and made my life bloom

Everyone seems so racy

But you stepped down and made me happy

For once, in my whole existence

Somebody honored my presence

When I thought nobody’s worth it

An angel fell that made me not to quit

I'm currently reading...

Simone Ekeles novels.

Perfect Chemistry, Rules of Attraction and Chain Reaction

If you just want to read a feel good books, something light that could make you smile and cry a little bit. :) It also involves peer pressure, FAMILY, friends and yeah another take on

bad boy meets good girl...

I just started reading perfect chemistry while i've read Chain reaction (3rd book) two days ago. It was an honest mistake. I didn't know the book has connection or something but my friend said its okay because the plots of the books can stand individually. Perfect chemistry is about Alex Fuentes, (my friend Ghel said) Rules of Attraction is about Carlos Fuentes and Chain Reaction, about Luis Fuentes.

Even if I'm still halfway on reading perfect chemistry and I haven't started R. A. yet, I prefer Chain reaction the most because i like Luis and his story, his cool... Anyway, I don't want to be a spoiler so just google it up or search it in goodreads if you're interested. :) Happy Reading!

how about you, what are you reading?