*just wrote while listening to Art of
Letting Go and You could be happy.
*free writing
Goodbyes break
hearts, souls, hope, relationships, joy, and many positive things. It was said
in a song that we all can learn the art of letting go. How can someone really
let go? Is it when one will go to different places alone but still feel all the
hurt whenever night time comes? Is it when after you said good bye and finally
have the courage to leave that you start to feel better for yourself but still
feel your heart aching whenever you remember a certain memory. Or is it when
you felt all the pain an
Memories.. Good or
bad.. all of them has a place in your life. Feel.. Feel the pain, hold on to
the memories, accept, don’t accept, go back to step one. Try to say it is
really over. Say goodbye even the words choke you. Set it free, set them free,
set him free. Maybe someday you’ll be fine, you’ll smile at each other because
it is all over but right now, accept… let go of the grip slowly, one by one,
one step at a time. You can learn to live again.
Start again. Restart?
Yes you can. Don’t give up on your life but give him up. No, he is not your
life. You have your own. Live it. Don’t be pathetic –well, it’s fine but don’t
be like that all your life. Hold on to the memories but learn to put away the
candid shots, the sweet pictures… the beautiful memories.
Unchain your hands,
your feet, unchain your heart. Unchain everything until you feel free. Tell
yourself, enough, good bye, IT”S OVER. Even if you don’t believe it.. Say it.
Let go of the grip. Stop holding on. Open up the door, get out. Walk away. Kick
all the chains. Think of Start. Restart. New. Run. Walk not towards him but
towards a new you. Towards a better life. A new future. Forget about the future
you drew with him. It does not matter anymore. It does not exist anymore.
Accept it. Just
think that you are walking on your own in a blindfold. You can’t see anything
right? Get the blindfold off. Continue to walk, Open your eyes. Do not be
afraid. It is dark? Walk again. Don’t stop. Run. Run away. Do not look back.
Not yet.
You can be happy
again. And maybe he also wants you to be happy. He wants to remind you how you
were before all this. Even if he wants you to stop from walking away just think
that maybe he is not the one. Not the right one. Not right now. Or Not ever.
You will be okay.
Alright. You will heal on the right time. You’ll get scars but you will be
truly happy if you just let yourself to let go. Cry it out now, scream so loud,
shout all the hate then breathe do it again until you get tired. Have a time for
yourself. Be happy, hang out with good friends. Be free. Smile. Accept, heal,
let go, live, and be happy again. J
