Inspire 28: Do not forget that

Inspire 27: Forget your fears

Sunday.. Family ... Cooking ...

me, with my cousin, nephew and his girlfriend. :)

"I just hope when we see each other, all of these will stay."

I haven't thought of any good lines or even scribble down in a notebook all the things I just created in my head. Until, those lines suddenly appeared in my head while talking to my cousin. I'm helping her as she's talking to someone... haha.

Hmm. Okay. nothing...

Inspire 26: Just let go

Maybe... it's time. :')

Inspire 25: Stop being too hard on yourself

The truth is I am this person. I always underestimate myself even in just simple things. I remember, before the year started I told myself that this year should be "FEARLESS 2013". Yet, once in a while I always go back to my comfort zone. I tend to not do things because it might not appear to be good or look good on me...

Actually there's a story of me -being afraid to sit on a hammock. EVERSINCE I WAS A KID, I never tried because I'm too scared that it will fall because of my weight. Until, a friend helped me get on it and honestly, it was one of the best moments of my life. I know this will be a shallow story but what the hell? I faced my fear and I didn't fall. 

So maybe I can continue being fearless until the year ends. I still have 8 months to go. :p

Lessons. Life.

*my feelings months ago*


It is only the beginning of the year but it feels like I've learned and changed a lot. Everyday I always want to learn new things, experience new adventures, and remember good memories. Often times, I end up being frustrated about life ...

Lessons.
--Learn to adjust.
I always feel that I am the most patient and considerate person in the whole world but I am wrong. very wrong. I realized that I can be impatient and inconsiderate most of the time. Well people change and as I mature, I'm more fearless to fight my own fights that I end up irritating or even ruining someone's day. I tend to show my (negative) emotions which makes me feel bad afterwards.

So, as time goes by I need to adjust on everything. Just like when I was a college girl who doesn't want to hurt anybody...

--You can never save EVERYONE.
I don't know how to say this but yeah, self explanatory. I should stop believing that I can save the lives of people who doesn't even want to be saved.


--TRUST but do not give 100% esp. if you have been betrayed... Once is enough.
It hurts the first time --it totally crushed my world but the second time???


--Sometimes, you have to stop caring so you would not end up being hurt.
I care too much. And for the second time I end up being left hanging. I'm just so scared that when I stop to care, I might end up losing "me." I tried that before, putting walls and just opening the doors to people I know, I can trust. When I stop caring, it means I cut ropes or any connections that's why I do not want to go back to that life again. As of the moment, I'm still deciding of what to do.

--Sometimes, you would let people believe their own conclusions because you are too tired to argue.
They already have their answers when they haven't even asked you the question... Just shut your mouth, play pretend,  and move on. Maybe, everything will be alright again or if not --be numb.


As of this time, I am not the best person to be asked of positivity or any good advice. I just want to let this out of my chest. Maybe, tomorrow I'll be fine again.

DEMI LOVATO LIVE IN MANILA 2013

March 20, 2013.

Though, I look like I was the oldest fan-girl in the audience, I really don't care.

DEMETRIA DEVONNE LOVATO - you inspire me!

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Inspire 24: I'm closer :)

Breathe.

just breathe.