#my500words: Just nothing

*just wrote while listening to Art of Letting Go and You could be happy.

*free writing

Goodbyes break hearts, souls, hope, relationships, joy, and many positive things. It was said in a song that we all can learn the art of letting go. How can someone really let go? Is it when one will go to different places alone but still feel all the hurt whenever night time comes? Is it when after you said good bye and finally have the courage to leave that you start to feel better for yourself but still feel your heart aching whenever you remember a certain memory. Or is it when you felt all the pain an

Memories.. Good or bad.. all of them has a place in your life. Feel.. Feel the pain, hold on to the memories, accept, don’t accept, go back to step one. Try to say it is really over. Say goodbye even the words choke you. Set it free, set them free, set him free. Maybe someday you’ll be fine, you’ll smile at each other because it is all over but right now, accept… let go of the grip slowly, one by one, one step at a time. You can learn to live again.

Start again. Restart? Yes you can. Don’t give up on your life but give him up. No, he is not your life. You have your own. Live it. Don’t be pathetic –well, it’s fine but don’t be like that all your life. Hold on to the memories but learn to put away the candid shots, the sweet pictures… the beautiful memories.

Unchain your hands, your feet, unchain your heart. Unchain everything until you feel free. Tell yourself, enough, good bye, IT”S OVER. Even if you don’t believe it.. Say it. Let go of the grip. Stop holding on. Open up the door, get out. Walk away. Kick all the chains. Think of Start. Restart. New. Run. Walk not towards him but towards a new you. Towards a better life. A new future. Forget about the future you drew with him. It does not matter anymore. It does not exist anymore.

Accept it. Just think that you are walking on your own in a blindfold. You can’t see anything right? Get the blindfold off. Continue to walk, Open your eyes. Do not be afraid. It is dark? Walk again. Don’t stop. Run. Run away. Do not look back. Not yet.

You can be happy again. And maybe he also wants you to be happy. He wants to remind you how you were before all this. Even if he wants you to stop from walking away just think that maybe he is not the one. Not the right one. Not right now. Or Not ever.

You will be okay. Alright. You will heal on the right time. You’ll get scars but you will be truly happy if you just let yourself to let go. Cry it out now, scream so loud, shout all the hate then breathe do it again until you get tired. Have a time for yourself. Be happy, hang out with good friends. Be free. Smile. Accept, heal, let go, live, and be happy again. J

DIA FRAMPTON

One of the best moments of my fan-girl life. I died.. she's awesoooome! can't wait to see the better photos! 

Kelly Clarkson - Fix You (cover)

Kelly Clarkson - Fix You (Albany 1/17/12)

And this is the reason why.. I am a forever fan of Kelly Clarkson! Gosh! SO GREAT!

Never mind, i'll find someone like you

Everyone made this their favorite song. Of course, Adele's version is THE ADELE version but forgive me guys, I love this version too. Alejandro, you're hurting my heart with this song. haha!

I really love Boyce Avenue's cover songs but I'm now putting this song on the top rank. I really really love it! (ok, dear self stop blabbing)

Listen to this guys! I hope you like it! :)

Chapter 6 of Teenage Dream Story :)

The official music video of The One that got away by Katy Perry!

"Sometimes you promise someone forever but it doesn't work out that way."

This woman's work

This woman's work is an original song of Kate Bush. I have to be honest, I first heard the song in The Vampire Diaries Season 3 Episode 7, Greg Laswell's version. It was a really beautiful song. I find it fit for the scenes in the series.

Greg Laswell's version


The Original version (Kate Bush)

I read that this song was written for the movie, "She's Having a Baby"

A dance performance using the song


So here's the lyrics, so that you can appreciate it better.

Pray God You Can Cope

I'll Stand Outside
This Woman's Work
This Woman's Worth
Ooh, It's Hard On A Man
Now His Part Is Over
Now Starts The Craft... Of The Father

[Bridge]
I Know You've Got A Litte Life In You Yet
I Know You've Got A Lot Of Strength Left
I Know You've Got A Little Life In You Yet
I Know You've Got A Lot Of Strength Left

[Course]
I Should Be Crying But I Just Can't Let It Show,
I Should Hoping But I Can't Thinking,
All The Things We Should've Said That I Never Said,
All The Things We Should Have Done That We Never Did,
All The Things We Should've Given But I Didn't,
Oh Darling Make It Go,
Make It Go Away...

Give Me These Moments,
Give Them Back To Me,
Give Me A Little Kiss,
Give Me Your...


(I Know You've Got A Little Life In You Yet)
Give Me Your Hand Baby, 
(I Know You've Got A Lot Of Strength Left)
Give Me Your Pretty Hand,
(I Know You've Got A Little Life In You Yet)
Ooh My,
(I Know You've Got Alot Of Strength Left)
Your Love Child,
(I Know You've Got A Little Life In You Yet)
Whatever You Need,
(I Know You've Got A Lot Of Strength Left)
Give Me Your Hand,
(I Know You've Got A Little Life In You Yet)
Give Me Your Hand Babe
(I Know You've Got A Lot Of Strength Left)


I Should Be Crying But I Just Can't Let It Show Baby,
I Should Hoping But I Can't Thinking,
Of All The Things We Should've Said That We Never Said,
All The Things We Should Have Done That We Never Did,
All The Things That You Wanted From Me,
All The Things That You Needed From Me,
All The Things We Should Have Given But I Didn't,
Oh Darling Make It Go Away Now,
Just Make It Go Away..

Currently listening....

As much as I love books, I also love music... That is why, I decided to make "currently listening..." like my usual "Currently reading..." blog posts.

Whenever I love a song, I have the tendency to put it on repeat... When I listen to songs in my Itunes, I usually choose the "top 25 most played" playlist. On the top of my list is Landslide -- a cover of Santana  and Britanny in Glee with 135 plays... uh -oh! As of this time... I had a song played 154 times, Leather and Lace -- Casey Weston and Tim Mahoney's version in The Voice... gooosh! :))

It doesn't matter if its classic, pop, rock, ballads.. whatever! anything, I listen to it.... haha!

So now, I'm sharing the songs that I'm really addicted to.. And I hope you'll like it too.

A drop in the ocean by Ron Pope

I don't wanna waste the weekend, If you don't love me, pretend A few more hours, then it's time to go.

And as my train rolls down the East coast, I wonder how you'll keep warm. It's too late to cry, too broken to move on.


I have to admit, I knew this song because of The Vampire Diaries. I think it was played when Stefan called Elena. And really! I died!!!!! kill me, kill me, I got teary eyed hearing Elena's words " I love You Stefan. Hold on to that. Never let that go..."

Fix a heart by Demi Lovato

''It's like your pouring salt on my cuts, you can bandage the damage. You never really can fix a heart.''


Actually, Demi Lovato's Unbroken album is on my playlist, also try Lightweight, Mistake, Give your Heart a Break, (of course) Skyscraper, Together (with Jason Derulo)


How to Love by Lil Wayne



I don't understand why people bash this song and Lil Wayne. Well, I don't know what's up with Lil Wayne and his past but Seriously?, this song has a heart. Listen to the song guys.. Reflect on the lyrics... and the video's good too. 


Casey Weston's version of i will always love you in the voice



I'm really not a fan of the song but I could say the original version's still the best (Whitney Houston). But, when I heard Casey's version --its the time that i downloaded the song and listen to it before I go to sleep. She did her own version of the song... and I can say that she nailed it... 


So there you go guys, these songs are the ones I listen to before i go to sleep. Whatta lullaby. hmmmm. :)

Shy and Sweet

I really don't know why I decided to have this post but I really want to say something about shy and sweet girls. Back in College (oh gosh! its just 5 months ago), my friends and I always fool around on being shy and sweet. Most of us in the group are literally loud and outgoing. Though, there are times that we just want to keep quiet but on normal days we are really loud and we always talk and talk and talk. Maybe that is the reason why we are amused whenever we encounter people who are genuinely shy and sweet. We really adore them because its like they are so reserved and composed. haha! Something we always try to be but we cannot.

Me and my girls with our friend Jerick.. Haha! I miss them!

The Voice was aired and I found a girl who will be my peg of being genuinely sweet and shy! But, there's a lot more to her, she's very very talented!

I've watched Dia Frampton on TV. Anyone who always goes to youtube will recognize her. She  is youtube famous with her sister Meg. meganddia.

They were introduced to me by my friend Rei before but I didn't really had a chance to listen to all their cover songs. I watched her audition for the voice and that's when I remember her and now, I'm totally addicted to her. Girl crush-ing here. hahaha

If you would just listen to her voice, Gosh! It is very unique that it can even calm your soul. So now, I will share some of my favorite videos of Dia Frampton... 

Hmm. To stay connected with our title shy and sweet, everytime you watch Dia perform on stage, her sweetness and shyness will be left backstage and she can do her own thing! She is a very smart performer with so many ideas but after she performs she goes back to being that shy girl. As Blake Shelton says, " a girl stood out here on the stage and perform with her heart and soul." 

Dia Frampton's cover of The First Cut is the Deepest by Sheryl Crowe

Dia's cover on Bless the Broken Road (my super duper favorite song of Rascal Flatts)

Dia's cover of mean by Taylor Swift

Dia's version of Losing Religion by REM THE VOICE PERFORMANCE :)

I looooooooove her! haha :)

Angel

This song is composed by Jireh Lim (one of my youtube crush!) for his girlfriend who died in accident. The song was very touching, he composed it days after she died... It is really heartbreaking... :'( I hope you'd take time to listen to the song... :'(


Seein you inside this lonely, little, tiny, hopeless room
Is way harder than you thought It's harder than you thought
Bringing you your favorite flowers
Purple daisy hope you bloom
Your mama's tears on my shoulder
Make my insides even tighter
I would rather see you here standing
Breaking up with me than to see you 50-50 in your hospital bed
There's an angel by your side My vision see your reflection
Tragedy will set aside if only I have felt right

I've never seen your heart this tired
I've never seen your heart this tired

I won't stop believin that you'll open your eyes,
I've been prayin that you'll never ever of go to the light yet
I won't hide this feelin that I'm having inside,
I've been wishing I'm the one who's in there and you're not one

Waiting here in front of you
Is the only thing I could do
I've never felt so useless in my life
But what else should I do
Hang in there my pretty love
Sun will set to shine for you
And when you open your eyes
For sure I'll be on your side

I've never seen your heart this tired
I've never seen your heart this tired

I won't stop believin that you'll open your eyes,
I've been prayin that you'll never ever of go to the light yet
I won't hide this feelin that I'm having inside,
I've been wishing I'm the one who's in there and you're not one

Ready to love again -- Lady Antebellum

HAHA! This is not my current status but I really like the song. Just being optimistic about life and love. Listen to the song and read the lyrics..

and my favorite stanza is:

"Seems I've been playing on the safe side baby
Building walls around my heart to save me, oh
But it's time for me to let it go"




"Ready To Love Again"

Seems like I was walking in the wrong direction
I barely recognize my own reflection, no
Scared of love but scared of life alone

Seems I've been playing on the safe side baby
Building walls around my heart to save me, oh
But it's time for me to let it go

Yeah, I'm ready to feel now
No longer am I afraid of the fall down
It must be time to move on now
Without the fear of how it might end
I guess I'm ready to love again

Just when we think that love will never find you
You runaway but still it's right behind you, oh
It's just something that you can't control

Yeah, I'm ready to feel now
No longer am I afraid of the fall down
It must be time to move on now
Without the fear of how it might end
I guess I'm ready to love again

So come and find me
I'll be waiting up for you
I'll be holding out for you tonight

Yeah, I'm ready to feel now
No longer am I afraid of the fall down

It must be time to move on now
Without the fear of how it might end
I guess I'm ready, I'm ready to love again

A brother's love

This video made me tore up last night. I was so touched and when i text my friends about this, they said they're also watching and they're crying. The two guys are brothers and the one with the "saklay" is Kurt. He had bone cancer, it happened when he was 16 years old. They decided to amputate the other leg to save his life.. Though, cancer cells already reached other parts of his body and ITS A MIRACLE that until now he survives. The doctor even gave Kurt one month to live but with God's miracle he's still alive.

They have a cool and soothing voice. Nothing very special but their love as brothers melts my heart (also my friends' hearts). After the beautiful rendition of "After all". They asked questions and Jefferson said "He prayed for someone special to come into his life and yes, someone came... but his brother got sick... And he prayed (its really best to hear it in tagalog but I want everyone to understand) "Kahit hindi na ibigay yung babaeng gusto niya basta buhayin lang ang kapatid niya." (It doesn't matter if the right girl wouldn't come along, just make my brother ALIVE.) aawww.

and as the song says.. "I guess its meant to be forever you and me after all.."

Dance with my father

Father's day Celebration is fast approaching and I'm really fascinated with the song of Luther Vandross Dance with my father (eversince I heard it).. Actually, I'm one of the people who still has my father beside me (though, not literally, he's in Saudi Arabia to work). I'm so thankful that God always guides my Papa each and everyday. yes, I'm a Papa's girl. Super. Whenever there are Father/daughter & Father/son scenes in any movies that I watch, I'm always affected. I love my Papa so much. Though, I'm not a super fan of superman, HE's my superman.

I have friends who already lost their fathers that's why I'm also affected with this song.. I may not feel their lost, but as a daughter you know that it will really hurt to lose a Father. Sometimes, I wish that they could dance with their father again....

"When I and my mother will disagree
To get my way I would run from her to him
He'd make me laugh just to comfort me
Yeah, yeah, then finally make me do just what my mama says

Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet"
This lyrics always makes me cry... Because its so me and my Papa... haha!

Below are some fan made videos of the song and different renditions of singers:


Dance with my Father Joseph McElderry's version :)


A heartbreaking music video... It brought tears to my eyes. aaaawww.


Celine Dion's Version


Terry Steele


Jacob Lusk :)


:) Hope you like it. :)

day seven: five songs that describe your life right now

SONG 1. I think God Explain

"It's alright I'm O.K.

I think God can explain

I'm relieved I'm relaxed

I'll get over it yet."

Whenever I'm troubled, I just listen to this song and I'll be okay. I know God has deeper plans for me. :) even if I don't understand at times, He always find a way to comfort me. :)

SONG 2. True Colors

"So don't be afraid to let them show

Your true colors,

True colors, are beautiful,

Like a rainbow."

I'm a girl who is a size 14 :) but it has never get on my way. I'm glad that I have family and friends who accept me as who I am. But, we are not living on a perfect world, there are times that I feel really bad because I can't buy clothes that I want. And even if I don't really mind them, some rude people are really getting on my nerves. I just hope some girls could be positive who has the same situation like me. So what if you don't have a perfect body? Who cares, you are who you are. Stay close to people who will appreciate and love you without any why's. Those people are angels sent by God. :) If I would want to be thinner, Its not because others want it for me, not because I want to be like those famous girls out there strutting their stuff. I will do it for myself especially because I want to wear those awesome clothes that doesn't have bigger sizes and I want to be healthy. :)

SONG 3. Once in a lifetime

I know that what I've found is once in a lifetime

(and) I know there's no way out

Coz its once in a lifetime

this is a song for my friends. I'm so glad that they were sent to me, in the right time and in the right place.

I always remember that GG quote whenever I'm with my friends, "With friends like these, who needs armies?"

SONG 4. God Blessed the Broken Road

I've been talking about this song a lot of times. i love the lyrics so much, and someday..... Okay next. :)

SONG 5. I'll be there for you by Martin Nievera

"when the stars won't shine anymore, i'll be there"

This is our song, Trixie (my dearest sister/bestfriend) and me. This song is a reminder of a beautiful friendship. I just hope everyone has a bestfriend. A person who will still be true when everyone else is lying on your face. Someone who would be there when you want someone to listen. Just listen. :)

Day 16 — A song that makes you cry (or nearly)

"Maybe its time. time for us to grow. Live by knowing ourselves without anybody's help."
This song makes me "senti" everytime i listen to it. Sad song. :) I can't relate with the song but I know that its very sad. :)

"Time To Grow"

Last night I tried but I couldn't sleep
Thoughts of you were in my head
I was lonely and I needed you next to me
Life is harder since you left
I never meant to do you wrong
And now all is said and done
I hope you won't be gone too long/ No

[Chorus]
Where do I go
What do I do
I can't deny I still feel something
And girl, I wish you could say you feel the same
You've broken the bond
I gotta move on
But how do I end this lonely feeling?
You've gone, I'm here, alone
I guess it's time to grow

I try to speak, but my words never catch the air
Like you never knew I was there
Take me back to the days when you really cared
Can we make love re-appear?
I can't go on the roads too long
And now all is said and done
I can't go forward if my heart's still where i'm coming from

[Chorus]

Crying time is over
I know I can't control her feelings
If she won't return, then I guess I'll be a man
and move on

Time to grow / And move on
Make life better than it was before
Time to grow and move on
Make love better than I did before [repeat]

Though you've gone / And I'm here, alone
I guess it's time to grow

Day 1: Favorite Song

Fey-vo-rit song. OMG! this is hard! I have many :(

Well, Maybe I would just post the one that always have a big impact when i hear it.

I can't post the audio here so i'll just paste the Lyrics :)

"Bless The Broken Road"

I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

[Chorus:]
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like Northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

[Chorus]

Now I'm just rolling home
Into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you.

It's a song that reminds me that someone along the way, will sing to me this beautiful lyrics. And in his prayer he will thank God that He led me straight to him. :) cheesy.