#my500words: Dear you

I'm just on my third #my500words post and it feels like I don't know what to write anymore (haha!) I really don't want to read my last posts because I might end up doing more tweaks which is not part of this personal challenge.

Anyway, I got an idea from a post I saw on tumblr. There's this certain blogger who writes short notes to people close to her, sometimes strangers but the catch is it doesn't have a name. There's no clue of who she is talking about. It's like the letters we write on our diary but this time it is posted online and that person is unknown...

It's like letting all your feelings out.

So, I'm going to do it too.

Phew.

#1
Hey, I know that you are having a hard time right now. You have so many questions on what is happening and I know that we all push you to be braver, stronger, and mature enough to tell the truth. I'm really concerned about you. It feels like you decided to be a mature person about this matter but you still can't swallow your pride. I'm afraid that something bad might happen to you just because of your selfishness. Why can't you just tell the truth? I know it is not easy but you have to remember that the clock is ticking and this is not something that you can hide forever. I don't know what to do with you anymore! Please? Please? Please? tell them now! Please?

#2
I never thought someone like you really existed. You are such a douche bag.. You fucking jerk. Whenever I remember your name, all I think about is jerk! jerk! jerk! *ssh*le. Ugh! How can you let something happen so easily and then deny it afterwards. Someday, when everything will fall into place, I hope the time will come that you realize the things that you did. I hope when the right time comes, you'll regret the day that you saved yourself and even used God's name in vain. I know that not everything is your fault but when I read all your messages... I cried because you made someone so important to me feel like trash. When the truth is you are the crap. (I'm sorry to say this and I'll probably regret this but, I just don't care right now.) I just hope these things that you've done will not happen to anyone close to you. and one last thing, Stop! saying that you are a changed person.. because you are not!

#3
Thank you for opening yourself up to me. You rather keep everything to yourself and does not build a lot of relationships because you're just not that kind of person. I'm happy whenever you tell me stories about you because I know that you trust me enough to tell me those things. Last year was the time that I learned to build a wall and limit myself to people who knows me best. It was surprising that I gained a new friend in you. Thank you. Thank you for helping me whenever I don't know what to do especially when I was the new girl. Thank you for teaching me to be a less worrier.

#4
This is something I know I will laugh whenever I got the chance to read again in the future. But what the hell, I just want to say it.

My daydreams are often about you and me meeting somewhere far from home. I even imagine myself being disappointed because the you in my dreams is very far from the you in real life. And then, I go back to that night of the gig when you smile that genuine smile...  And *poof*here goes the daydreamer again. Don't worry I don't imagine my future with you, I'm old enough to realize that you are just a crush -- a super crush!

#5
You'll be fine. Just don't ever give up on your dreams. One step at a time. :) You'll get there.



Wow!!! I enjoyed this.. Maybe I should do this more often! :)

Inspire 25: Stop being too hard on yourself

The truth is I am this person. I always underestimate myself even in just simple things. I remember, before the year started I told myself that this year should be "FEARLESS 2013". Yet, once in a while I always go back to my comfort zone. I tend to not do things because it might not appear to be good or look good on me...

Actually there's a story of me -being afraid to sit on a hammock. EVERSINCE I WAS A KID, I never tried because I'm too scared that it will fall because of my weight. Until, a friend helped me get on it and honestly, it was one of the best moments of my life. I know this will be a shallow story but what the hell? I faced my fear and I didn't fall. 

So maybe I can continue being fearless until the year ends. I still have 8 months to go. :p

Lessons. Life.

*my feelings months ago*


It is only the beginning of the year but it feels like I've learned and changed a lot. Everyday I always want to learn new things, experience new adventures, and remember good memories. Often times, I end up being frustrated about life ...

Lessons.
--Learn to adjust.
I always feel that I am the most patient and considerate person in the whole world but I am wrong. very wrong. I realized that I can be impatient and inconsiderate most of the time. Well people change and as I mature, I'm more fearless to fight my own fights that I end up irritating or even ruining someone's day. I tend to show my (negative) emotions which makes me feel bad afterwards.

So, as time goes by I need to adjust on everything. Just like when I was a college girl who doesn't want to hurt anybody...

--You can never save EVERYONE.
I don't know how to say this but yeah, self explanatory. I should stop believing that I can save the lives of people who doesn't even want to be saved.


--TRUST but do not give 100% esp. if you have been betrayed... Once is enough.
It hurts the first time --it totally crushed my world but the second time???


--Sometimes, you have to stop caring so you would not end up being hurt.
I care too much. And for the second time I end up being left hanging. I'm just so scared that when I stop to care, I might end up losing "me." I tried that before, putting walls and just opening the doors to people I know, I can trust. When I stop caring, it means I cut ropes or any connections that's why I do not want to go back to that life again. As of the moment, I'm still deciding of what to do.

--Sometimes, you would let people believe their own conclusions because you are too tired to argue.
They already have their answers when they haven't even asked you the question... Just shut your mouth, play pretend,  and move on. Maybe, everything will be alright again or if not --be numb.


As of this time, I am not the best person to be asked of positivity or any good advice. I just want to let this out of my chest. Maybe, tomorrow I'll be fine again.

Inspire 22: "Go all out, or don't go at all."

Maybe, this one's applicable when it comes to work or achieving your dreams. Do your best in every way that you can. :) go and make your dream happen! :)

Inspire 21: Dream

Do not ruin other people's dreams just because you're having a hard time achieving yours.

Begin Again

Begin Again
Steps for a Better and Fresh You

Kristina Noelle Andaya

They say that 2012 will be the end of the world, but the optimistic ones are more concerned on how they will make their selves better this New Year. A better you can start from having a total makeover or having peace of mind and heart by letting go of the awful things that happened in the past year.

You don’t need a new year to refresh or restart your life. You can do it anytime. It just feels refreshing to embrace change as you welcome 2013 full of hopes and dreams.  Sometimes when you want a fresh start, it begins from within.

Choose confidence

Start the year by allowing yourself to be more self-assured. Stop caring about what everyone else thinks. Life is too short to always seek others’ approval on who you want to be. To gain more confidence, begin by accepting who you really are and everything will fall into place. Also, surround yourself with people who will bring out the best in you.

Choose now

Everybody’s excited about the future while others dwell too much in the past that they forget to live in the present. Today is a good start to have a wonderful tomorrow. Stop reworking yesterday and don’t peek too much in the future. It is time to make the most out of today and live in the moment.

Keep it real

There’s nothing more refreshing than being your authentic self. Drop the mask and show people the genuine you. Say no if you really mean no and utter yes if that’s what you really had in mind. Being true to the world often makes your surroundings more true to you, too.

Keep making mistakes and learn from them

Do not be afraid to fail. Mistakes are there to remind you that you can keep getting better. As Michelle Williams’ character Jen said in the 90s drama Dawson’s Creek, “Be sure to make mistakes, make a lot of them because there is no better way to learn and to grow…”

Welcome forgiveness

Holding grudges and burning bridges are unhealthy ways of living. You can never be happy when you fill your heart with hatred. It may be the hardest thing to do, but as the new year arrives, allow yourself to forgive. Forgiving is a gift that you give to yourself. Live your life by accepting apologies and dropping the hard feelings that have been in your heart for a long time.

Welcome challenges

Problems are a big part of life. Your existence here on earth will be dreary if you get everything easily. These problems are challenges that allow you to become tougher and wiser. Once you’ve overcome these challenges, you can face harder battles in life.

Stop blaming

Another year means another chance to improve your take about conscientiousness. End the day when all you do is blame others or let others defend you in situations that you know you are responsible for. It is now time to take a stand and have the power to take responsibility.

Stop hating life

Life may never be fair, but it is still worth living. Instead of complaining about your life, make the most out of it. It is easier to be said than done, right? But you have to accept the ugly truth because one way or another you still have to get up and face it.

Remember: enjoy the journey towards a better you.

Things to start doing in 2013

ð        travel

ð        sleep early and wake up early (Oh! Gosh!)

ð        try listening to a new genre of music

ð        save money and watch the concert of *insert name of favorite band*

ð        make a bucket list and start doing it.

ð        learn a language you hate

ð        read more

ð        take a technology break

ð        accept change

ð        let go

ð        forgive

The highest level of fan girl-ing

Sorry for the poor video quality... and for my voice that sings along with Alexander! haha

Even if I am a fan of a celebrity, band, musician or any "awesome" human being, I never went to their mall tours even if it is just near my place. So, I have to say that this is one of the things I have done for the first time!

I've learned of the band, The Cab from my friend/ former office mate, Eena. She let us listen to Vegas Skies and Take my hand. And yes, I instantly fell in love with the them and their songs. For many nights, I've been listening to their songs, endlessly (haha). Some of them are on repeat for weeks until I try another track. Usually, it was Vegas skies for two weeks, Take my hand the next until, I had their two albums and discovered more heart-pinching and kilig songs. 

I've been a fan of other bands but I never thought of going to their tours or any activities.... until, The Cab. I was searching for events in September (for work) when I stumbled on The Cab Mall Tours in Ayala Malls. At that time, I just joked my friends that we should go  because the band have a gig at ATC -- (my favorite hangout place). Also, I was really brokenhearted because I can't watch THE MAROON 5 concert so I'm finding a way to ease the pain, LOL!

So there, Airiz agreed to go with me and Joanna joined too. The funny thing is my office mates were very supportive. We thought of a way on how will the band notice us. NOTICE!!! hahaha. We thought of a stuff toy wherein I can throw it at Alex Marshall (the keyboardist of my life, LOL). 

The stuff toy thing was scrapped in the plan, another plan is to buy the sash where words "be my future husband" is written. Then, I said.. Oh my gosh! I can't do that... hahaha!

Hours before the event, I saw my first ever dream catcher necklace. I decided that I will find a way to give it to Alex... GOSH! I was so excited. 

The thing is we don't have tickets to get in (because we are broke girls) -- haha! it is really part of the plan. We know that during mall tours, you can still watch on the side. BUT!!! Even if we do't have any pass, our SPOT was the best! We were on the side where Alex Marshall seats when he is playing the piano. (Yes, my heart is screaming and I am screaming and all the poise in me was forgotten! haha)

We always tried to get their attention even if we're just outside. The plan worked really well. Alex Marshall keeps looking and smiling in our direction until the best thing happened. He gave his guitar pick to us! He asked the sound production man to give it to us... AND HE POINTED AT US!!!!! aaaaaahhhhhhhh!!! Then I remembered my dream catcher. We asked the same man to give it to Alex, and the second best thing happened, ALEX MARSHALL wore my dream catcher... and looked at me and smiled. I can't breathe... LOL

ALEX MARSHALL!!! I LOVE YOU! haha Thanks for this!

though, Airiz will be the one who'll keep it! :)

Woah! That was really an awesome experience though we just tortured ourselves as we watch the others hugged and kissed The Cab because they have passes for meet and greet. Anyway, those two best things were the awesomest! hahaha

Thanks for these photos tumblr and google! hahaha

09/22/2012

Living, loving and working

I can't imagine anything more worthwhile than doing what I most love. And they pay me for it.
-Edgar Winter

Meet my new family. :) My workmates!

meeting. meeting. meeting with the creative minds!

work mode off. dinner with the Gala team

Notice the two familiar girls there? Debbie and Airiz my best college buds? we are workmates too. I am so happy.

Cheers for more memories together with my girls! :)

Reflection and Ramblings

Holy Week, Semana Santa or Mahal na Araw is a significant religious festival here in the Philippines. Different towns, regions etc. have their own traditions. Businesses shuts down operations starting Maundy Thursday until Black Saturday (while some just opens late on a Saturday) to give respect for the tradition. It is also the time when people start to think of a summer getaway not only to enjoy but also to pause and reflect.

As for me and my officemates, a time to have a break, a vacation or whatever you want to call it. We planned to go to Polilio Island then thought that it might be dangerous to travel thru boat ride on that day. So, we decided to go to Calaguas Island. CALAGUAAAAS!!!

photo not mine. got it from their fb page

When we are so excited about everything, we decided to back out because we learned that the weather is not good in the North. We have to travel by boat on the way to the island so we have to scrap the plan. We are very disappointed but for sure we will re-schedule this trip. :)

And because I don't know what to do during the break (except for writing my articles and catching up on my tv series and BOOKS), I ask my mama if she wants to have a Visita Iglesia around the churches in our town on Thursday. She's game for it so I will share you about our own Visita Iglesia.

So this is how I spent my Maundy Thursday with my Mama. :)

Our first stop, Sto. Rosario Parish Church --the church where we always hear mass. :)

Sto. Rosario Parish Altar

This little girl is so adorable. I think she's with her parents doing their own Visita Iglesia too. I saw her when we transferred to the next church, too.

Second stop: San Lorenzo Parish

This is my first time to be in this church. They say that if it is your first time to visit a church --you should wish and it will be granted. I don't know if it is true but it wouldn't hurt to try so I did! haha

My mama trying to reread her prayer booklet.

Hers is the old version that is why she is confused. Haha 

Third Stop: A church in Chrysanthemum Village (Sorry, i forgot the name :/)

Mama! :)

It is so good to see a family, praying together. :)

Fourth Stop: Our Lady of Sto. Rosario Parish (it has the same name with our parish..)

Also my first time here. *wish*

Fifth stop: The Church that is closest to my heart. Sto. Niño de Cebu Parish. 

The church of my high school Alma Mater. This is where we have our First Friday Mass. I remember this is where we've shoot our short film  (for our Filipino class) back in Senior year. So many memories. Few walks away from my high school but it is summer break so I decided not to go inside the school. :) 

Sixth stop: Miraculous Medal Parish :) It has just a small congregation and the church is small (sorry haven't took more of the church's interior.)

After the Visita Iglesia, we went home and rest.

It is very hot during the afternoon. You know when it is so hot you cannot think clearly? Gosh. It is really summer after all! haha!

I may not be in the beach but I still wore a cover up while I'm in the house!!!! hahaha It is a crazy hot summer!!! Ugh!!!

crazy mode on! sorry for this! hahaha!

Now's the time for me to finish reading Looking for Alaska and Kafka on the Shore (how many times do I have to tell this to myself?!)

Ta-ta!

Because it is vacation, I have more time to blog! Yey! Oh my gosh I'm rambling?! 

#9 Inspire: You are never alone.

image source

I know this is not a great entry for not posting more often but I hope this could inspire some random stranger who feels that he/she is alone. :) We're all just the same. We feel sad, happy, in love or any emotions that you can imagine and you are not alone.

Got a good #CatchUpWeekend by watching SMASH --its so good, Katharine Mcphee is made of pure awesomeness... and Im trying to catch up on The Vampire Diaries too... :)

And yes, I'm having a double time on my reading -- STILL, stuck with Kafka on the Shore and Looking for Alaska -- I just hope after this week, I've finished these two books already. :)

And to add -- my bestfriend has graduated from College last Friday! And I'm a proud bestfriend!!! :)

Congratulations dear! :) I loove you!

I took the photo from my phone :)

And as for work -- I hope you can visit Gala Magazine's website. I'd really appreciate it if you'll take a look. (I'll blog more about Gala Magazine next time --visit the website okay?)

Thank you very much! Hope to be back soon! LOL.. :)

Kit♥

Advance Screening for Hunger Games!!!!

Yes! We watched Hunger Games last night at SM Manila (All SM Cinemas has an advance screening of THG!!!). Actually, SM's cinemas are not my favorite when it comes to watching movies BUT! They had an advance screening! 1 day advance worldwide!!! Of course, we grabbed the chance. After work, we went straight to SM, good thing some of our College friends joined the fuuuun! Aww. I miss everyone, it's just that we didn't took any pictures because we're to busy talking after the movie.

Hmmmm? My thoughts about the movie. I loooooove eettt!! Though, I find the cave scene happened too fast! Of course, I love Rue but I cried harder in the book. I love the part where Seneca Crane.... I like Haymitch in the book but I don't know -- I like him more in the movie. Oh! wait, maybe I should have another post for this. No spoilers.. And I'll stop comparing the book and the movie, I love it both! :)

Anyway, I can't wait to watch it again this Sunday --this time, with my brother and Mama. Mama's so funny, she asked me what happened in the movie (yes! she's also a fan of the book) then I'm telling her everything until she said, okay stop... I'll just watch the rest on Sunday! hahahaha! Exciteeed! :)

Though, I was able to watch the advance screening, I still envy everyone who attended the premiere night in UK, US etc. Ugh! Anyway, Happy Hunger Games EVERYONE!!!! :)

Ugh, her dress!

bareback, gorgeous!

Mixed Vid tape

This mixed vid tape is a Chritmas gift of my friend Debbie to all of us.

She gave it to us while we were eating at Dad's Glorietta (during our post Christmas get together.)

I always say that I love mixed tapes and I wish someday someone would give me one (gooosh! I'm so cheesy and old school! haha.) So this mixed vid tape is very special. Debbie explained that all of us have almost the same content of the vid except that in the cd that has your name, you are the star of the video. I'm not saying the shining star but the laughingstock star. HAHA!

I have many candid photos and VIDEOS(OMAYGAASH!) that is why Debbie told us that we can blog about this but we should "POST AT OUR OWN RISK!" I'm still thinking if I want to post the vid because I am ashamed of myself... hahaha! The photos and vids are very funny but at the same time... HEARTFELT. 

We just graduated last year but I miss everybody already. It is really different because when we were still in College, we see each other everyday. Have lunch together, dinner, snacks, wait for each other before class starts, "be late in class together", attend org/club meetings, watch movies together even the "cheesy" ones, overnights, go home late, just pig out whenever we have extra money.." So I'm not really used on the set up of not being with them everyday. Still, I have to remember some good things never last. We all need to grow up and be better people. One thing I know is as we go and achieve our dreams, we will never forget each other and we will always support each other. :) 

The songs debbie used in the video is really ♥. Actually the video has a collection of many photos with our many friends, mostly our Journ group, Sentinel Family (school paper), MassComm friends, other classmates etc.. That is why, I was teary eyed while watching the vid. Here are some stills in the vid. :)

me smiling for the cam during our meeting. haha

The Sentinel Family

Journloorves

oookay the conference night! haha

Grad day!

haha! super funny! a photo for Sentigang. This is not real guys. Everyone's into acting! LOL

Team Building! ICE CREEAAAM night!

The Ed Board. :)

lose together, WIN TOGETHER!!!

hahaha!

:)

and as the song goes:

Minsan ay hindi ko na alam ang nangyayari
Kahit na anong gawin
Lahat ng bagay ay merong hangganan
Dahil ngayon tayo ay nilimot ng kahapon
Di na mapipilitang buhayin ang ating pinagsamahan
Ngunit kung sakaling mapadaan baka
Ikaw ay aking tawagan
Dahil minsan tayo ay naging
Tunay na magkaibigan

Translation:

Everything has its own ending and we need to go on separate ways but some day I will remember and I might call you because once in our life we became true friends. :)

Wishing it was Prom again.

One of the highlights of my high school life is attending Prom. In our school we don't need to have dates to attend prom. It's up to you if you want to attend or not and at that time you'd go to Prom with your classmates. What I mean is when you enter the venue you'd be paired with your classmate (your choice and you're really lucky if you're in the same section with your boyfriend/girlfriend) and sit beside each other during the program. After dinner and after the (formal) program you could change seats and go sit with your friends in the other section, just roam around and say hi to everyone (if you are very friendly), dance with your own partners, fool around with friends on the dance floor. It is up to you on how you'll make that moment memorable.

It is the time of the year when girls are so busy thinking about their dresses or gowns and I am here going down memory lane. Wow, I miss those awesome times! haha. I remember on our Senior Year my friends and I went to the same tailoring shop together. haha! looorve et!

My girl friends! haha on our Junior Year

My friends!! They were my classmates in Sophomore Year.

with my Buddy Anna

During Junior Year (JS) Prom, I was wearing a fuchsia pink dress with beautiful beading. It was tailor made in Saudi! At that time, my Mama is still a working in Saudi so she has many tailor friends and made the gown for me. :) 

 Next is the Prom when we were already Seniors! More fun because it is not our first time anymore. Haha. Everything was all about fun! haha

colorful gowns and dresses! haha.

told yah! more more fooling around.

with THE bestfriend.

Bestfriends!

Have you noticed something in my photos? I had a bad hair style. The hair stylist decided to curl my hair but we did not know that my hair has low tolerance in any kind of curling. haha! We haven't even arrived in the venue but my hair is almost straightening up! My friends tried to save it and used curling iron to curl it again. Before the program even started, all I got is a messy hair. Eww. But I did not even notice because I did not go there to have an awesome hair... I attended the Prom to have fuuuuun! haha. 

I'm wearing my favorite color at that time, BLUE! Yey!

Here I am wishing it was Prom again, you know why? Because of the beautiful gowns and dresses. I remember one of my many dreams is to be a fashion stylist (haha!) so I gathered photos that I will recommend to wear on their own prom. These are just random beautiful photos that I found in the internet (and some are gowns I wish i could wear too.) Haha. I also have photos that I created in looklet. Just imagine, I am your big sister trying to help you decide what you'll wear on the big day! :)

I remember during our time, our Prom has themes but we don't follow the themes. haha! We choose what we want to wear but it should not be very daring or something..

I'm not good on remembering designers so I'll just give opinions on the dresses/gowns. haha!

When I saw this for the first time, I fell in love with it. The style is very "girl." Perfect when you're a Junior. Simple but stylish. The shoes goes with the dress too. And Ariel is really pretty. haha

So stunning! can I have Prince William as my date too? haha

I really like the cut of the gown. If you's wear this to your prom, maybe you could wear another color.

Black is beautiful but you can try more pastel colors too.

If you just one to be far from the usual, this is perfect! Just make your make up Prom approprite

 haha. 

Work it girl! Katy Perry. Oh! I mean the dress, love the color! :)

love et! I love Demi's hair here! :)

Go with shiny, shimmering, splendid! :)

My looorve Bianca Gonzalez! 

very elegant!

ooh! sweet and spicy! haha. 

These two white outfits are really looove.

love Elle Fanning's outfit the most. Very young lady!

I don't know if this dress is Prom appropriate but you have different themes right?

Well, I don't care when I watched this episode and saw Blake Lively (Serena) wearing this dress.. I died! haha I love it to death! :)

be the GOLDen girl!

very purple! cuuute!

vintage and crochet! Like

the color! Ugh! I love et!

RED!

awts. I don't know how to call this kind of dress. haha. high fashion?

PEG: Goddess and Fairy!

You can style your hair like this! :)

I love you Blake (sorry, that's all I can say! haha)

Betsey Johnson dresses/outfits!

You can also style your hair like this. love the messy hair!

♥

This is Wooow!

The Blair Waldorf outfit!

Omygoooosh! print!!!

Simple and Classy!

Anne Hathaway. Anything she wears, I love. haha

The prom princess. of course, you will not wear flip flops! haha.

Haha! sorry for pic spamming. All photos of celebs with gorgeous gowns are found in the internet. :)

Anyway, enjoooooy!!!