goodbye 2008 -- Bonjour 2009

My year-"ender" blog

2008 - has been a roller coaster ride for me and for my family. But, we've been much stronger and bonded.

This is not the best year but not the worst either. Just in the middle. Because my friends are there to feel the empty parts.

I've been bad. I know.. God knows that. But i know He already forgave me. :)) I'll try to be VERY good this year. haha!!

I don't want to write resolutions, i'm not used in making lists. I don't need a list. All i know is i should be a better person everyday. :)

So, before i end this blog.

I want to thank everyone for standing by me with my 2008 trip, its been a roller coaster ride...Yet, it was FUN. I will always treasure the memories that we had.

The parties, debut, just chill, reviewing without even knowing the lesson, watch movies, mall-hopping, bus rides, jeepney rides,write articles, take photos, eat and eat, TAKAS, just talk and talk :P... etc etc.

I may not remember the exact scenes, but the people who are with me through thick and thin will always have a special place in my heart.

Don't worry. in Kit's heart and mind, MEMORIES WILL ALWAYS BE TREASURED!!!

Take care!!!
ENjoy the last hours of 2008!!!

a heartache quote

I am so bored. I just decided to browse anything under the NET. hahaha.

While reading some blogs. I landed into different websites then i found this.

Its not the best quote that i have read but, i can say that this is true.

What is Heartache?
Heartache is feeling all the love
you could possibly possess for that one person
and at the same time know
that the feelings are not mutual.
Heartache is having that feeling of anticipation
crushed down when u seem him
and know that u cant have him.
Heartache is trying to be a good friend and
listen to him express his own feelings of love.....
for someone else.
Heartache is him coming to u for relationship
advice and u trying with all your power
not to give him advice that will
surely demolish his current relationship.
Heartache is wanting so desperately to
grab him and give him one of those
huge fireworks exploding,
academy-award winning,
would only happen in a movie
because he loves somebody else kisses.....
but u know u cant.
Heartache is forcing your body to play dead
towards him so as to not give
any true feeling away,
even though the deafening sound of your heart
beating out his name is driving u insane.
Heartache is having to tell someone who just
asked who that guy u were walking with was...
"ohh him, we're just friends",
while inside u cry and
whisper "thats all we'll ever be"

Disclaimer: I got this from, www.inspirationallane.com/SadLoveQuotes.htm

I haven't experience heartache, lately. Though, i have experienced it.
It's a one of a kind feeling wherein you feel too much pain and depression. But, when you surpassed it, you will be proud of yourself. Just surround yourself with God, family and ever jolly friends... You can do it.Swear.

Anyway... heartache is part of loving someone. Right?!

goodbye 2008, hello 2009

survey from my brother

1. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
- super duper fun at walang kapupuntahang ROAD TRIP
- be a finalist of a writing contest


2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
- I think, i haven't kkeep some of it. haha!

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
- no one.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
- Gladly. wala naman.

5. What countries did you visit?
- haha. I haven't visited any...

6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
- DSLR. DSLR. DSLR.
- laptop?
- sige na nga. Digi cam.

7. What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
- December 26, 2008 - my 18th birthday
- Tin's debut -- bratz!

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
- i've been out of my comfort zone.
- been more happy

9. What was your biggest failure?
- None so far.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
- Only fever.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
- Vince's Life Sequel.. haha.and books. books.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
- My Father... *wee

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
- never mind... haha

14. Where did most of your money go?
- BOOKS. LOAD. FOOD. BUSINESS -cloth -- ribbons. MAGAZINE

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
- ok?? TWILIGHT!!!

16. What song will always remind you of 2008?
- REHAB. CLOSER. THUNDER. DECODE. IF I WERE a BOy.
haha i think i read it as *songs... haha

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

i. happier or sadder? just in the middle

ii. thinner or fatter? fatter. haha

iii. richer or poorer? Generally speaking. hmm. POORER. haha

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
- love more? ahahaha. lols. maybe i could have studied more para naman naka DL ako. haha

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
- worry about things.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
- i've already spent it, in our lovely house.. lols. :)

22. Did you fall in love in 2008?
- Nope. ay? YES kay Emmett Cullen. haha lols. I'm inlove with Edward and Alice.

23. How many one-night stands?
- none.. it doesn't even came in to my mind.

24. What was your favorite TV program?
- GOSSIP GIRL.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
- hmm?

26. What was the best book you read?
- TWILIGHT SAGA. BREAKING DAWN!!!!!!!... Vince's Life Sequel

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
- i can also love classic genre. haha

28. What did you want and get?
- JOURNAL. ow yea!

29. What did you want and did not get?
- DSLR. i hope to have it next year

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
- Twilight
- Sisterhood of Traveling Pants 2

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
- 18. FOOD and BONDING with friends

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
- TO BE WITH my family and friends... that will forever be immeasurable

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
- Laid-back

34. What kept you sane?
- GOD. friends. prayers

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
- Senator John McCain and Oprah Winfrey...
- Blake Lively

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
- The automation of Elections. Know WHY? ARTICLES ARTICLES. that we've done for our news and feature writing class.

37. Who did you miss?
- Papa.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
- KIANAH and JOICEL.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008:
- Stay Positive. With God we can make miracles.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
- "take my hand, take the lead, and every turn will be safe with me"
hahaha.

my 2008? upside down.
But with God.. We made it. I'm happier.

Thank You for My Specia Day♥12/26/08

Thank You God for making my day special.

I may not have the grandest celebration nor expensive gifts. I may not have that DSLR that i've been wanting on my birthday... At least, I have my most precious gifts. MY FAMILY AND MY FRIENDS...

I'm matured enough to understand that some things are not meant for you NOW. Malay mo bukas pwede na. haha. JOKE.

From a little shy child i am now a much better lady who is ready to face the new challenges of her life.

Let me greet myself first. Happy 18th birthday to me. Belated. haahahahahaha

Vince's Life: The Next Chapter Getting Over Andrea

Finally. The Sequel. My much awaited sequel.

I can't wait to read Vince's words again.

The "i will wait until there's nothing left to wait for" kind of words.

I missed their small group..
Vince, Spider, Connie and Andrea.


But, in Vince's New Life..
I've become more in love with his story.

His new work, New friends.. But, he's still the old Vince. Only more mature and HAPPY.


It started when he decided to move on -- after a year. Still he is inlove with his ex.
Until she met Cat. a workmate.

I can't finish a sentence because i still got a hangover with Vince's story. AN HONEST story. VERY. and true.

When i've finished reading the book, i've texted my bestfriend Trixie. I told her that i love this 2nd book and included in the text my ever loved words. Which vince's life proved to me that i'm true.. " Not all things are meant to be even if you felt that its real."

I don't know. But, i'm on Vince's side. haha. I understand Andrea too. She just wanted to fulfill her dreams.

But, Vince captured my heart. Especially when he said the "Fireworks" thing..

Vince about what was it like when he fall inlove

"You know how fireworks are always a surprise? It was like that. Everything was magical and just when i thought it couldn't get better until I thought I would explode from joy. And then it was over."

And also the letter he made for Andrea. I felt his pain there. Super.

With Cat. The new love of his life. I like her.

But, i can't get over the Andrea and Vince thingy..

Their conversation on New Year's Eve. It made a big bang to me.

page 138-140

~...~
I won’t be stuck in the past, holding on to our yesterday, waiting for something that won’t ever come back.

“And I’m happy. You don’t know how happy I am now that I’ve straightened all of this out.” I laughed, I don’t know why. It wasn’t particularly funny. “We gave it our best shot, and we loved hard. It was beautiful. And now we’re both free–and whole–and we can do whatever we want to do.

“You’re leaving again. But I won’t ever lose you. Some people think loving someone is a waste when it doesn’t work out because you can’t take back the love you gave. But I don’t think it’s like that. You’re a part of me.”

~..~

And so thats it. "Kulang na lang inarrate ko na ng buong buo. HAHA.
I love it very much."

Just what i said in my plurk. I really want to meet Vince O. Teves. Or whoever is the person behind that name. :)

-- Special Day of Our Creator --

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Merry Christmas

Thank you for my Life and for my loved ones Life.

Thank you for your wonderful gift.

Thank you very much.




I Know i've done bad things this year and i ask for your forgiveness. Don't worry I'll try to be a better person, everyday. ok? I'll try.. :)

I love you My God. Thank you for being my strength.. Thank You Thank You.

Merry Christmas EVERYONE!!!

I really wanted to make a blog entry today but i have many things to do. LOLS.

haha I'm on the phone talking to a friend. Maybe, i'll blog about something tomorrow. or.. LATER...

have a merry christmas everyone!!!

insights of a gossip girl fan

Blair: Whatever you're going through, I wanna be there for you.
Chuck: We've talked about this. You are not my girlfriend.
Blair: But I am me. And you are you. We're Chuck and Blair. Blair and Chuck. The worst thing you've ever done, the darkest thought you've ever had, I will stand by you through anything.
Chuck: And why would you do that.
Blair: Because I love you.
Chuck: Well, that's too bad.

Blair: Only a masochist could ever love such a narcissist.

I have watched this episode a week ago but i'm still affected with some of the scenes.
I hated Chuck for hurting BLAIR with the "that's too bad" line.
I LOVE IT BECAUSE
One, Queen B finally have said those magic words but, worst it was not appreciated.:( Second,
Applauce for Chuck Bass -- i got scared on the scene when he got out of the car and on the
bar. He convinced me as a viewer that he is mad and grieving. TOTALLY MAD. Third, I'm a fan of
Derena tandem. But, i also like the twist that they got to hurt each other. You know S
with the A thingy.

OK? if i will count more, the space is not enough. BUT.. really episode 13 is GREAT!!!.

It's fun to see that we could connect the show with reality.

You could lose someone who cares for you (BART BASS). When a son (CHUCK BASS)
(or anyone!) lose his father in an unexpected time, the pain will make you miserable.
Everyone deserves to be happy (like Eleanor and Cyrus)...
AND even if there are sad moments BFF Serena and Blair will never fail to make you smile
with their FASHION STYLES..


-- from a GOSSIP GIRL FAn :)

change: good or/and bad

" People Change.. Usually, they change into everything they said they wouldn't be"

The truth is, i'm afraid of change.. Before.

I remember when i graduated from grade school, my parents want me to enroll in a new school but, i don't want to. Anyway, they won.. I enrolled at CSA - first year high school.
NEW people, new surroundings and new life. :) And like any Augustinians, i screamed I LOVE CSA.

I learned that change is not bad. haha Or let's say its GOOD, if you still hold on to the old YOU.
I am a big fan of memories. I love my present life but the memories of the past will always remain in my heart.

Now that, i'm in college. I witness change, everyday. From people i know, --long haircuts gone.., weather(haha!), familiar people --became unfamiliar. etc

What makes me sad, are the people who are my so called, "hey! i know everything about him/her!" but turned into "what?! did she do that?"

There's nothing wrong if you change into someone or into "a somebody that is far from you are before." I don't care. It's a free country. EVERYONE has a life of their own.

The line here is: Know your boundaries. You might hurt the people around you because of that *hey, i am mature now. You can't tell me what to do anymore!".

What scares me is, you might hurt yourself. You might lose the people who cares for you so much.

I'm now a 2nd year college student. I've changed a lot. From maturity to being out of my comfort one. Still, i can assure everyone that i'm still the friend who listens when they pour their hearts out.

:) I have many things to say but i don't know how to say it without being mean. Maybe i will just keep it to myself. (:

don't grieve

It's painful to be unable to reach the person you love. But if you keep grieving over it, the burden in your
heart will just get heavier.

-EF: a tale of memories

I don't have any idea about this anime. My friend in plurk posted it awhile ago. She shared a photo of a scene in the show(anime) she's watching. And i've read those lines.

People today are strong enough to accept things, especially the ones that they cannot grip. Everyone should know that LOVING is not owning. You are just giving or sharing your best to a person you cannot live without. But, if he/she don't accept the love you give.. so what? Let Go.

Just accept the fact that when you say "I LOVE YOU" you might not hear the "i love you too".

Maybe, he/she is not for you... right?!

Rehab - Rihanna featuring Justine Timberlake

Baby baby
When we first met I never felt something so strong
You were like my lover and my best friend
All wrapped in one with a ribbon on it
And all of a sudden you went and left
I didn't know how to follow
It's like a shock that spun me around
And now my heart's dead
I feel so empty and hollow

And I'll never give myself to another the way I gave it to you
You don't even recognize the ways you hurt me, do you?
It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back
And you're the one to blame
And now I feel like....oh!

You're the reason why I'm thinking
I don't wanna smoke on these cigarettes no more
I guess that's what I get for wishful thinking
Should've never let you enter my door

Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it
'Cause now I'm using like I bleed

It's like I checked into rehab
And baby, you're my disease
It's like I checked into rehab
And baby, you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease

Damn, ain't it crazy when you're loveswept (?)
You'd do anything for the one you love
'Cause anytime that you needed me I'd be there
It's like you were my favorite drug
The only problem is that you was using me
In a different way than I was using you
But now that I know it's not meant to be
I gotta go, I gotta wean myself off of you

And I'll never give myself to another the way I gave it to you
You don't even recognize the ways you hurt me, do you?
It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back
And you're the one to blame
'Cause now I feel like....oh!

You're the reason why I'm thinking

I don't wanna smoke on these cigarettes no more
I guess that's what I get for wishful thinking
Should've never let you enter my door

Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it
'Cause now I'm using like I bleed

It's like I checked into rehab
And baby, you're my disease
It's like I checked into rehab
And baby, you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease

Now ladies gimme that...

Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohohoh, oh, oh, ohh

Now gimme that...

Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohohoh, oh, oh, ohh

My ladies gimme that...

Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohohoh, oh, oh, ohh

Now gimme that...

Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohohoh, oh, oh, ohh

Oh! You're the reason why I'm thinking
I don't wanna smoke on these cigarettes no more
I guess that's what I get for wishful thinking
Should've never let you enter my door

Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it
'Cause now I'm using like I bleed

It's like I checked into rehab
And baby, you're my disease
It's like I checked into rehab
And baby, you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease

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salita: bahala na

Nandito nanaman ako. nakaharap sa isang kahong pinapatakbo ng elektrisidad.
Hindi maisip kung ano ang nais na sabihin.

Ang pagsusulat. Ang gawaing minahal, minamahal at aking mamahalin.

Pero minsan, may mga bagay na mas magandang sa sarili na lang nakatago.

Ikinukubli lahat upang wala ng magtanong kung bakit? ano? paano? at kung anu-ano pa.

Nakakainis din kasing sumagot sa mga tanong na pati IKAW, ay hindi alam kung anong isasagot. Ang gulo diba?

Magulo kasi... yan ang estado ng utak ko ngayon.

Madami akong gustong sabihin... Nais ibahagi.. sa wikang ingles man o sa wikang tagalog.
( Pinili ko na lang na ipahayag ito sa sa tagalog. hindi ko alam kung bakit. )

Ngunit ang problema... ay hindi ko alam kung paano sisimulan.

Nakakainis na ba tong basahin? Ako din naiinis na eh!
sige na nga.

Bakit di natin simulan sa mga salita na:
(May iba't iba tayong opinyon sa buhay, blog ko to. kaya hayaan niyo ako!)

Kapag mahal mo ang isang tao, kahit anong inis ang naramdaman mo sa kanya o kanila, maya maya lang mawawala din yun.

Nakakalungkot isipin na yung buhay ko dati ay hindi ko na ulit mahugot sa baul.

Nakakainis ang pera. Kasi yun ang dahilan kung bakit nalulungkot ang ibang tao.
Hindi nga ito ang pinakamahalaga. Pero hindi ko talaga alam kung bakit ang lakas ng kapangyarihan nito na mapaikot ang tao.

Mag papasko na pala. Pero hindi ko pa rin nadarama. bakit kaya?

Siguro kung nakikita ko lang ang hinaharap hindi sana magiging ganito.

MAsaya ko sa buhay ko. Pero minsan hindi pa rin maiiwasan na humiling at kung anu-ano pa.

Pero ito ang buhay na gusto niya para sa kin. Kaya tatanggapin ko.

Masaya ako. Kumpleto at buo kaming pamilya. Napakaligalig at saya ng mga kaibigan ko.
-matatalik na kaibigan, Bratinella, "highschool", "elementary", journleftovers, "college"
mahal ko yang mga yan..

Kaso minsan, may kulang. Ano? SECRET. kasi sa sarili ko na lang yun... yun mga taong malalapit sakin, siguro maiintindihan nila to. o Baka, hindi rin.

ilagay na lang natin sa ganitong sitwasyon.

May mga bagay pala na minsan bigla na lang nawawala. Akala mo babalik pa pero hindi na talaga. Mananatili na lang yung wala. Meron din namang nagagawa mo dati, Araw araw, linggo-linggo man... o kahit kailan basta nagagawa mo... na pag lipas ng taon, dahil sa mga pagbabago ng panahon ay mananatili na lang na alaala.

Bakit kaya kung sino pa yung nagpapakamabuti sila pa yung hindi binibigyan ng kalayaan.
wag na nating palawakin pa. sakin na lang yun. baka kasi hindi salita ang bumuhos dito kundi LUHA.
baka lang naman.


walang naiiyak. hindi ako naiiyak. madami ng nangyayari sa buhay ko na pati ako hindi ko naisip na mangyayari pala. hindi ko sinasabing OK LANG YAN. sinasabi ko na lang bahala na.
Ang mata, isip at utak ko ay pinagtibay na ng panahon. marami na akong prinsipyo sa buhay na nakakubli, ngunit sa aking pagbibilang... mga dalawa at kalahating taon na lamang ay magagamit ko na. Lahat ay aking sinusunod. Pero pag dumating ang panahon na binilang ko, Hindi ko alam kung makikita ko pa ang dating sarili ko. Kung hindi na. wala na akong pakialam.

Bahala na. :)