Random 101

15) huwag mong hayaan na umikot lang ang mundo mo sa mga taong nakapalibot sayo, baka pag kailangan na nilang umalis, gumuho nanaman mundo mo.

The truth and Feelings

I always say that no matter how much you feel bad, sometimes you have to be okay. That's the truth but there are also times that you'll feel that Hey! I can't act like everything's okay. You have to let yourself stop and ask what's wrong?

For me, it will never be a sign of weakness, its just part of reminding yourself that Yes! you're human. You can break down and cry.

It just sucks that even after you break down and cry, you can still the pain. And then, I'll still go back to my number 1, You have to be okay. Because the world will never stop for you.

Is it possible to lie without saying a word?

Is it possible to lie without saying a word?

Answer here

My first week of december

December - supposed to be my happy month, its my birth month but no matter how much positivity i put in myself, it feels like everything's not falling into place.

Derena Gives Me Hope

Dan Humphrey: I wasn't wrong to believe in you. I still do, I'll always will.

S04E10 you're giving me hope. :)

Happy December 1 guys. ♥

Hi! and Kiss.

I always encounter creepy moments whenever I'm in our house, at school or anywhere haunted. I don't know if there's really good/bad spirits or its just my imagination. I'm glad I don't have a third eye because if I have, I'll die. I'm the weakling member of our family since I was a kid. I don't want to go to dark corners of our house whenever I watch Magandang Gabi Bayan Halloween Special. I hate to see weird faces of creatures or anything scary but I outgrown them now. I learned to be stronger though at times I still experience those spine chilling moments.

Hi!

I believe in spirits of loved ones visiting your place like there's a sudden flower scent in the room when you didn't spray any perfume. Also, when you smell the blown candle but I never really believed that spirits could play with you. Until, one day when my Mama received some big cash and she was trying to do a monthly budget. We had lunch then Mama proceeded with her unfinished work. On the spur of the moment, she called me asking if I have entered the room before she does. I didn't. She said that she hid a bundle of money  under her pillows but, she can't find it. Everyone was trying to find the money in every corner of the house. (Funny, come on?! bat mapupunta sa Sala kung sa kwarto lang naman nilagay! but we don't have a choice we tried to look everywhere.) Mama even showed us the remaining money in the envelope. She count it one by one a hundred times but the money didn't show up. She went to tita's room and they cried! Because Mama smelled flower scents in the room while she's trying to find the money. She felt that maybe its lolo and lola trying to say that "Hoy, alalahanin niyo naman kami." Mama came back to her room and tried to count the money in the envelopes again. She turned pale when she'd seen it already placed inside an envelope with the other stuff. It was even folded in to two. We all got goosebumps after. Maybe my Lolo really wanted his children to remember them. He made it, to send a message or just wanted to say HI!. It's unbelievable but it really happened.

Kiss!

I'm not a lolo's girl nor a lola's girl. I have not seen my grandfathers because they already died before I was born. My Lola Zening is still alive she lives in Bataan so I can just see her often. My Lola Pol (the one they say my look a like) lived in the house for quite some time but we didn't have that lola-apo talk or anything. Maybe, because she can't speak tagalog fluently. To be honest, I envy my friends who still have their lolo or lola. I never really felt a lolo or lola's love that much. Until, one night, I dreamt of my Lola Pol. We were just sitting outside a house the surroundings was so peaceful then she smiled at me and kissed me on the cheeks. When I woke up, it felt like I can still feel her kiss. I don't know what's the sign but I think it means she's proud of me and she wants to say to Mama that she's already happy in heaven. I hope I read the signs right.

I don't consider the kiss a creepy moment but a sign from up above that there's really happiness up there. I just hope one day I could know my lolos and lolas better. Someday. :)

Life Changing Semester

This post is beyond OVERDUE. I should have blogged about this right after 1st semester ended. I didn't because I was too lazy and too tired. HAHA!

I am on my last year in College that's why I wanted to make a difference. Or from the very start I really wanted to do something that I haven't done before. Something productive. When I decided to join Lyceum Independent Sentinel, I just wanted to write. Write anything under the sun. And yes, honestly, I also joined the school paper so I have something to put on my "future" resume. But, the school paper made me into something I thought I could never be.

I just applied for feature writer but they gave me something more. I remember when Mam Ren asked "What position are you applying for?" I said,writer for features or news (thank God! they didn't gave me news.) They asked why not Editor? and I answered "Because I don't have experience, "nagsusulat lang naman po ako ng articles sa klase niyo, Sir (referring to Sir Gil)." I don't know what happened but they gave me an Editorial Position. Feature Editor - unbelievable. Me? an editor? Anyway, I have to face it.

I questioned myself if I deserve the position, actually until now. But, everytime I remember my Kuya's motivation and my ate's (cousin) kind words, I

always hold on. That's another issue. :)

I didn't write this blog to talk about my insecurities. (that's another story) :)

Lyceum Independent Sentinel's Ed Board :)

with my partner/lil bro in Feature Section

meeting mode

Team Building

The Sentinel, taught me many things. Skills without love and passion is worthless. The school paper also opened my life to new people. At the end of the semester, I gained new friends and created a family. We are not perfect. We have our own flaws but little by little I came to know each one of them. Shared little stories to big secrets. First issue of my section is Okay. But, I know I haven't done my best because I was excited to release my first article and I'm just learning the life of an editor. A hard but fulfilling one.

Along with Sentinel, our very own LPU Camera Club was already official, and I also joined other school organizations. And I realized, I didn't just join this organizations just to put something on my resume but because I want to take a step forward. I want to be out on my comfort zone. And I have done a good job. I enjoyed my first semester with work and fulfillment.

First Semester made me appreciate Chemistry Class, I'm a bit slow when it comes to sciences but I learned something from this subject because of our professor. She's a good and considerate professor, thanks Mam Nicdao. I will also remember Mam Tabin in Logic, because of her I became closer to our Creator. :)

My Chem Loorves.

Though, this semester marked my lowest grades. :)

I don't have a 5.00 nor 3.00 but my highest grade was only 1.75 and got more 2.50. Still, this is my most productive semester, ever!

But I need to say goodbye to you. I have to say hi to second sem.

Oh Gosh! I'm almost there. Thank you Lord. :)

P.S. I am experiencing a writer's block right now that's why I need to right something random. Sorry if I have wrong grammars or whatever.

Empty

Have you ever felt the feeling of emptiness. I don't know but that's what i feel right now. Maybe, after the happy times there's an equal "it sucks time." I know i'll get over this but i hope it would be sooner. Frustrations are all over my head and I hate it. I hate it very much. Come on?! get out please?! :(

Criss - cross by Airiz :)

Her fingertips tap against the keys

like a steady rhythm of a weeping heart.

We wait for time to slip;

I watch and reminisce and think --

is there something to offer us

when we exit our little 'paradise?'

We share puzzle pieces behind closed doors;

we traded bittersweet nothings

of the escapist planes of our hearts.

Time seems nonexistent

when we explore each other's thoughts.

Her happiness is her choice,

My destiny is weaved by my bare hands.

Unconciously, we complement each other.

in a world that forbids criss-crossed fates

-This is a poem made by my friend Airiz Casta for me when we were still Freshies. I so love this poem because she just made this while we're talking inside the photo lab, (dark room). She's just awesome. I treasure this because its the first time someone made me a poem.

first episode of our last season (College Edition)

Dear God, this is the first episode of our last season, thank you for this day. Please help us surpass all the trials that will come our way.