from a TVD fan :)

The Vampire Diaries Season 3 Episode 10 

It is really a happy day for the Delena (Damon and Elena) fans. Everyone's waiting for that kiss on the last scene in the latest episode. The writers finally gave in to the most dominant fandom in the series.

The problem is I am a Stelena (Stefan & Elena) fan but I do not hate Delena, sorry I'm not the kind of fan who hates other pairs just because it keeps getting on the way of my favorite fandom. I told you guys, I am not a fan of hate! haha. Honestly, I also like Delena! I have to admit Ian Somerhalder and Nina Dobrev have great chemistry on and off screen. I love them as a couple! Super cuuuute. *blush*

To prove that I love the Delena fandom too:

Gooosh! Damon's lines are really, really argh! I died! :)

Damon: I love you Elena and just because I love you I can't be selfish with you... I don't deserve you but my brother does. *Gosh, tears*

So yeah, I like Delena too but Stelena got me here! (sorry I can't embed the video)

*play Gravity song by Sara Bareilles*
Stefan: What would you write?
Elena: Dear Diary, ...... I'm scared Stefan, Im scared that If I let myself be happy... the world will come crashing down...
Stefan: Do you wanna what I'm gonna write? I met a girl, we talked, it was epic. The sun came up and reality set in, all this is reality, right here.
(OMG, guys sorry, I am really a bad transcriber when I get so *kilig*! haha just better watch the link.)

When Season 3 started, the worlds of Stelena fans were crauhed, literally, LOL. haha
I know every Stelena fan used their kleenex during this scene:
Elena's birthday, that phone call

and had their hopes up when they watched this:
Stefan saves Elena from falling

And then the Christmas hiatus was over and another heartbreaking scene of Stelena was shown.

</3

Because of this scene, I have created a mental message by Stefan and because I got really carried away, I wrote it down on my journal. After so many years on writing on my journal -- the scenes that I wished have happened (in any books, movies, tv series and personal experiences), the words that should have said, the things that would have done, this is the very first time that I would share it on my blog. haha! I may talk a lot but what is written on my journal stays on my journal (even unfinished short stories, many concepts for stories and future novellas etc).

Here's my created lines (I don't know how to call it.)

I based it on the scene where Stefan said "Not really my problem." 

Stefan (what his heart screams but he said Not really my problem) : 

" I know Elena. I know. I heard everything. But I need to do this. Klaus turned everything away from me. I have to ruin him so that he could not bother you again. You think that I may have lost my humanity Elena, I appear to not care anymore but there's a deep pain in my heart that I cannot control. The pain digs deeper but I cannot let it out. Everytime you look at me with those piercing eyes is the most painful thing that I ever felt in my lifetime. If only I could just drop this fight and tell that "I lose!, I don't care anymore if Damon would die, if any of you would die. I love Elena and I don't care about the rest. It may sound perfect but it isn't real. As much as you need me, you also need all the people around you. I know how much you love me and that you are holding on because you still believe that I could care. But, the evil side of me is pushed to its limits, and I won't blame you if anytime, you would let me go. I hope you could see in my eyes all my feelings for you but you should not. Go away now Elena. Leave. 

Elena: *slaps Stefan* Then you can go to hell

Stefan: I am already in hell because of all of these. </3

-end-

Well, How was it? I hope you liked it! Super dramatic right? Because that is what i felt as I watched that heartbreaking scene. 

*woah, this one's a really long post. I hope I didn't bore you.*

<3Kit