Betrayal

She heard everyone's there.
Laughing and having a great time.

She left her room to have fun thinking that another party organized by her cousin.
She tried to hide the feelings that she's keeping ever since that painful day happened.

She made her way downstairs. Everyone's eyes on her. She smiled but no one returned her smile. All eyes where shocked, worried... And feels like something's wrong.

She was about to speak when she felt numbness in every part of her body. She can't move even if she wants to.

She saw the man who broke her heart two weeks ago, holding her cousin's hand and offering words of love.

Then she realized she's in her own house. Attending an engagement party with his ex boyfriend and beloved cousin. How sweet is that?

She tried not to flinch while half of the crowd is looking at her.
She felt all the pain coming in. She wished that the floor will came into life and swallow her but, reality bites it will never happen.

She made her way out. No one's there to comfort her.

She went outside to hold her emotions. Her dad is in New York. Her sisters were nowhere to be found. She was all alone.

And in a sudden snap, she forgot the pain. The heartache. Everything...

She went back inside her house. Walked straight to her cousin. Hugged her tight with a very fake smile. She never laid her eyes to her cousin's fiance. She looked at her cousin and then to her Aunt... She turned around and smiled to all the guests...

She gave her best wishes. A fake speech that swooned everyone as if she's really happy for the couple.

Lies... Perfidy...abandonment... It all leads to betrayal.

A thing that she hated for years.
She went away leaving all the bad memories behind. No one knew where she stayed.

Some says in Greece because its her dream place. Friends predicted that she went to New York to work. And a few said she went to Paris.

Two years and no word from the girl who is idolized by many. Loved by some. Hated by insecure sluts.


maybe. just maybe she tried to stay in the land of what might have been, for a while.

100 truths of kittiful

No rules, just copy and paste. Hey c'mon! if you got nothing to do, and wanted to waste time... this is helpful.

note: I just read this from someone else's blog, I got nothing else to do, so i tried answering.

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: Water
2. Last phone call: October 10, 2009 12:57pm
3. Last text message: awhile ago.
4. Last song you listened to: moonriver
5. Last time you cried: months ago

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: haven't dated. haha!
7. Been cheated on: nah. is betrayed by a friend counted? LOL

8. Kissed someone & regretted it: sorry. haven't kissed anyone as more than a friend

9. Lost someone special: yah?
10. Been depressed: many times. my gosh!

11. Been drunk and threw up: no, i don't drink hard? is that the right term? haha

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. BLUE
13. BLACK
14. YELLOW

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: yesyesyes
16. Fallen out of love: nope.
17. Laughed until you cried: yes. many times
18. Met someone who changed you: this 2009? no.
19. Found out who your true friends were: VERY VERY OW YEA!
20. Found out someone was talking about you: yah. haha
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: nope.
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: trixie, jet, journ and some broad friends and BRATZ. :P
23. How many kids do you want to have: 2?
24. Do you have any pets: i dont have any, years agooo ng wala.
25. Do you want to change your name: nope. i like it that way.though thare were days that i thought na sana January na lang ako pinanganak so that i would have the name of the month and nickname would be JAN. kaso ayun si mama, napa anak ng dec.
26. What did you do for your last birthday: birthday blast with hs barkada, bestfriend and college friends kaso kulang. but happy naman
27. What time did you wake up today: 06:00am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: dreaming. haha
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: ticket to macau. awts
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life:
hmm, to be rich. so that my dad won't have to go to saudi na. *ayiiii tears.

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: nah
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: crazy bitches who are stupid.PEOPLE na PORMA lang alam. wala namang utak. *sorry na. kainis kasi

35. Most visited webpage: facebook. gginsider
36. Whats your real name : KRISTINA NOELLE SORIANO ANDAYA
37. Nicknames: kit, kiti, mamu
38. Relationship Status: SINGLE and happy. LOL
39. Zodiac sign: Capricorn baby

40. Male or female?: F
41. Elementary?: Montessori Del Ni�o International School

42. High School? : Colegio San Agustin Bi�an :)

43. College?:Lyceum Of the Philippines University :)
44. Hair colour: balck babe

45. Long or short: Long.
46. Height: 5'1?
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: oo naman. haha
48: What do you like about yourself?: patient and understanding
49. Piercings: just ears

50. Tattoos: henna? hahaha. nah. i dont like

51. Righty or lefty: Righty.

FIRST-S :
52. First surgery: none so far.
53. First piercing(s): ears
54. First best friend: Paola Beatriz M. Albeza
56. First sport you joined: Volleyball.

57. First vacation: Pagadian City

58. First crush: It starts with the letter J. yahhahaha

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: finished already
60. Drinking: nope. but i'll drink water later
61. I'm about to: post a blog (if i wont be lazy! haha)
62. Listening to: sound of electric fan
63. Waiting on: my fruit salad and home style roast to be cooked so i can serve it na sa cafe world. ahha

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: yah..
65. Get Married?: haaay, yah but siguro its not my priorities in life. haha
66. Career?: OMG. im ambitious. so i want to be a writer/photo/journalist/event organizer/fashion stylist... kaya kaya? haha

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: eyes

68. Hugs or kisses: hug
69. Shorter or taller: taller

70. Older or Younger: older

71. Romantic or spontaneous: both. damn
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: arms.
73. Sensitive or loud: sensitive...
74. Hook-up or relationship: RELATIONSHIPS
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: idunno... hesitant?

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: nope.
77. Drank hard liquor: nope
78. Lost glasses/contacts: 20 20 vision at sana until forever.
79. Sex on first date: nope.
80. Broken someone's heart: hahaa. i think so?
82. Been arrested: nope. SeRENA?

83. Turned someone down: YAh
84. Cried when someone died: yes
85. Fallen for a friend?: shut up. but yah... before. learn from my mistakes. haha

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: yes/
87. Miracles: yes.
88. Love at first sight: nope. that's lame
89. Heaven: YES
90. Santa Claus: not anymore

91. Kiss on the first date: maybe?

92. Angels: YES

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: Nope nbsb! haha
95. Did you sing today?: yes

96. Ever cheated on somebody?: kuleeeett!

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: the day my father courted my mother. ang cheesy. cute siguro mawitness yun!

98. If you could pick a day from the past and relive it, what would it be?:

many things but one thing would be the time i lost myself... and tell to myself to stop being depressed... anyway i've been ok. so lets just leave it to the past. haha!

99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: NO. but to love and get hurt again? YEs.
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: ok

Stagnant

I haven't posted entries since mid july not because I haven't posted any BUT because multiply and blogger didn't work correctly. I don't know if that's the term. hahaha

Now, that its ok.. Im Cross posting again. so. BLOG BLOG BLOG!

This Season 3 of GG is Freaking me out :))

Its just the first two episodes but i'm going gaga over the cast.

SERENA - my ever beloved Serena. She is so unpredictable and a crazy bitch. I hate what she did to Chuck. I even want to slap her in the face, Chuck just wants to help him. DUH?
But, lets see. CARTER with Serena? Lets TRY.
DAN AND SERENA again? how i wish... esp. Scott's in town --the brother.

DAN: (Blair: Dan is a writer?) haha I'm loving him more. He's not boring anymore. *I have a thing for writers you know? haha! Georgina and Dan? So not okay.

BLAIR: I want to cry for Blair. ITS so not Queen B!
I hate Georgina but i love her. haha! confused?
--BLAIR and CHUCK scene is so *blush* (ok finish my sentence!)
Blair: [in bed] You were right about the dorms. The lighting is awful. You okay?
Chuck: [sleepy] I am now.

Blair: Most of you don't know me. My name is Blair Waldorf. But a lot of you know my roommate who threw this amazing party, Georgina! I know, Georgina rocks, right? It's funny, I never knew a Jesus freak could throw such a good party, but I guess I was wrong. So everybody raise a glass, or a plastic cup of foam, to the coolest Christian I know, Georgina Sparks!

GEORGINA: well, i always loved her lines and HER! but not when she messes up with blair and being friends with that vanessa --eeww!!!!

CHUCK: well, maybe in the next episodes he will be my fave.... haha

JENNY and ERIC: i love them TOGETHER!!! so like bestfriends? hahaha brother/sister.

but jenny? argh! next please?

BREE and NATE: Its like a waste of screen time?

Can Nate Archibald have a nice storyline and not just have sex with a girl? Kiss. Make out? etc. Im tired of it.

Scott? ooohhh! the brother.. handsome but i feel that he is really up for something... something bad? I don't know. and i don't like him with Vanessa.


So here we are.

VANESSA is sooooooo.. argh! They are giving her a nice storyline but I still hate her. NYU people loves her but I DON'T! She feels like she is so good (sorry! vanessa basher!) haha!
I don't like her looking at Blair as if B's a loser and she's like on top. eew! hate her! haha!

Rufus -- so fatherlike. I'm liking him more... haha

GOSSIP GIRL? of course! so love as she says!

Gossip Girl: Apparently higher education doesn't make for smarter decisions. So take out your notebooks and sharpen your pencils, kids. Gossip Girl's going to college, and this class has a lot to learn.

So 'til next episode!!! :))

xoxo
kit :P

How Nicholas Sparks made me crave for more

WHAT DOES TRUE LOVE REALLY MEAN?

A walk to remember is the first book that I've read from the works of Nicholas Sparks.
Way back high school. And I already loved him for that! I love Jamie and Landon as much as I love Eddie in Five People You Meet in Heaven.

After that book I just went to bookstores and read the back covers of his works. Pity me, I don't have money to buy. I even tried e books but it doesn't work for me. I really wanted to read something which I can bring wherever I go. Ang sakit kaya sa mata ng e-book!

Until, my mom had a chance to borrow a book from a friend's daughter. She got the THE NOTEBOOK, THE WEDDING and THE CHOICE. But, my friend Warren lend me his sparks book --DEAR JOHN!

I got confused on what book will I read first. Until, I decided to pursue Dear John.

At first I thought it was a mushy/cheesy book but, Im wrong. VERY WRONG. It made me hold back tears because it was sad. A sad Story. Something that I'm craving for... Why? Because it is not an unexpected ending.

I don't want to spoil anything but, if you are close to me I think you already know what I'm talking about.

To People Who doesn't -- WELL i'm a fan of unhappy endings (not all the time naman).

Cause for me "it doesn't have to be HAPPY just to be called a GOOD ending".

THE ENDING of Dear John is something that I always try to find from the books that i read.

Super iyak lang ako kasi hindi ko inexpect sa Dear John ko pala mababasa yun gusto kong ending.

HAHAHA. I'm guilty. I cried so much. Because Dear John is not just about JOHN and SAVANNAH. But also JOHN and his father.

OK? I'm not a hypocrite. Yes I cried because of what happened to John and Savannah's love.

Yes. That's true love.ok! SHUT UP na :)


When I finished it, I tried THE NOTEBOOK. Its not my favorite but its still good. WHERE CAN I FIND MY NOAH CALHOUN? haha.

Now, I'm planning to read the choice or the wedding.


Hmm. I just hope Mr. Nicholas Sparks can read this blog and I will say to him..


IDOL!!!! hahaha! :)

Selective Amnesia

Lacunar amnesia is the loss of memory about one specific event. It is a type of amnesia that leaves a lacuna (a gap) in the record of memory.
source: wikipedia.org


I heard this word from a korean tv show that i was watching two weeks ago. The main character had an amnesia when he saved the life of his bestfriend. I know it will really happen, because it is the story of the Taiwanese version *the amnesia thing.
But, I was shocked when the doctor said, He has a selective amnesia. I said "WEH?! joke time? MERON ba talagang ganun?" Because the only person he can't remember is the girl he love.
So I searched it in wikipedia -- and there! *meron nga!*
It is called Lacunar Amnesia

The doctor explained that *"Kung ano ang pinakamasaya at pinakamasakit na nangyari sa buhay niya, yun yung nakalimutan niya."* But, the memories will be back after some months especially if the people close to him will keep reminding him of those beautiful memories.
It is also said by Steven Johnson that "The person who has that particular amnesia will have a general unease encountering the person who had harmed them in the past."
Even if they forget a certain event they can still remember their past feelings.

I just find it amusing, how the writers made a different twist in the story.
*Ang sakit kaya nun! Lahat sila naaalala niya, IKAW lang hindi?"!* WTH?!

I want to explain more about it kaso ang daming scientific words (*sorry! SCIENCE eh! lam nyo naman!!!) Meron pang binanggit na hippocampus and amygdala.

haha!

Its nice to learn new things and I love it more when I watch shows that has more REAL storylines. I love fiction but I also want things that also happens in reality.
Yun akala nating gawagawa lang, pero totoo pala.

Kris Allen - New American Idol Season 8

KRIS ALLEN.

I like Adam Lambert too but Kris deserves it too.

Love na love siya ni rhei kaya Love ko na din siya, haha!

Back in Laguna

HOME SWEET HOME

I'm back home.

I'll miss CEBU pero syempre babalik ako dun no!

Be proud of me guys.

Nakauwi ako mag isa from CEBU. ENJOY KAYA!!! NANALO pa ko ng WALLET ng CEBU PACIFIC

game kasi nila sino may charger!!!!

meron ako!!!
hahahah

above are some of the pics in my CEBU VACATION :))

upload on the go!

5 days in Cebu... and 11 days to go

I miss Laguna but I'm enjoying my stay here.

Lalo na nung pumunta kami sa BIG FOOT kanina,. wow. I want to study there.

No pictures inside the school. BAWAL. a big no. awts. :))

pero ok lang...

more trips to go!

Detailed blog will be done when i arrive home :))

Cebu trip

I will be out for two weeks. HUHU.

Mamimiss ko KAYO at ang pag iinternet. haha! ADIK?

I will miss kia's birthday celeb!!!!!

and bud Faith's treat to BRATZ!!! huhuhu.

Cat's birthday and Tinand pao's bday. :'(

Bahala na. Bawi na lang ako pag uwi ko.

I'll be leaving this Sunday. I will miss you guys. mwahx!!!!!

I'll be back on the 19th.

mwah. mwah!

Enjoy your vacation GUYS. mwahx :))