Suddenly, I miss the little me during Christmastime, the girl who doesn't demand anything. I have my own wishes but I don't say it out loud. Any gift will do. Swear. I'm just happy to open gifts. I'm happier to see that I have a gift in my Christmas Stockings.
I don't know how I found out that Santa Claus is not true. I remember I didn't get mad and just laughed when I learned that all the gifts were bought by Tita courtesy of Mama and Papa. I even remember that Santa (hmm?) always write me a letter together with the gifts! haha.
Now, that I'm older I wish for more. I want this, I want that but I can't have it. But, beyond the material things I know that I am already a grown up. I remember when I was 16 years old, all i wished is to have a peace of mind and heart. Never mind my reason. :))
And the greatest wish is to have my Mama and Papa during Christmastime and my Birthday. I remember when Mama (first time after so many years) was here on my birthday, that was one of my happiest moments.
Eversince, I'm wishing for Papa. Do you remember when you are a kid? When you wish for a big gift? That's what I always wish for, he doesn't even have to be put in a box. I just want him, as he calls Mama to fetch him in NAIA then I would accompany her. I want that scene to happen during Christmastime. I want to have Noche Buena with Kuya, Mama, Tita and Papa. I want to sleep at Christmas Night and wake up the next day wherein my family's complete. Celebrating my birthday.
I know that would happen, not now but maybe next year? or Few years from now.
:)
